It is a must watch series. In a way it reminds me of GG but its so much less modern day drama. There are so many twists that keeps me interested for every minute of the show. Personally I like this more than the twilight series; I don't know why Twilight just seems like it was more directed towards girls than guys. VD is different, sure its still about a girl but there is always a mystery ^^ (<3 mysteries)
I love the character developement; it is so diverse and completely unique when comparing to the other 20 to 30 characters. Its so crazy I finally watched the new-er ones and it blew me away. They finally locked away Katherine =] (that bitch needed to die)ironic too Damon was the one that sealed her up lol and he loved her too. <3++
Friday, November 5, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
what is love
:/ I often question myself this.
There has been so many variation; I'm not sure what to believe.
Is it when my heart pounds on my chest when I see her?
Is it when I find myself thinking about her?
She's not like the other girls.
She is true to herself, strong willed, not fancy, cute, fair, reliable, she is even capable of beating me up ^^ LMAO <3 I like when you try =]
I wish it was another 10 or 20 years into the future and she's my wife already and possibly...children? o_o I really wonder how they'll look like *dot dot dot* he he he
just wanted to express what I thought was love =]
There has been so many variation; I'm not sure what to believe.
Is it when my heart pounds on my chest when I see her?
Is it when I find myself thinking about her?
She's not like the other girls.
She is true to herself, strong willed, not fancy, cute, fair, reliable, she is even capable of beating me up ^^ LMAO <3 I like when you try =]
I wish it was another 10 or 20 years into the future and she's my wife already and possibly...children? o_o I really wonder how they'll look like *dot dot dot* he he he
just wanted to express what I thought was love =]
Monday, October 4, 2010
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Self-reflection
I wish i was in a church right now...2 O'clock in the morning...kneeling with a candle on the side.
I wanna just reflect on what i value, what my goals are, what I see as importance.
For many people, social status and a career is a crucial part in their lives. I'm not agruing that it isn't. Being supportive is good in the long run but I value many other things. I think just being a good person throughout your life is a good trait. I belive that those who are true, kind and fair shall be rewarded when we die. Sure a good career and a lot of money is great, but how much of that wealth could we really carry to the afterlife (if there is one).
All I know is, I could be the poorest person on earth, a complete fool and still be happy. Some of you might think that I am too simple, chill or carefree and that is understandable. My values in life are not the same as your and shouldn't they be? we're all humans but were not identical are we.
I just know that I wanna be honest as much as possible,
I wanna be able to help others,
I wanna be joe,
I just wanna be respected
I wanna be happy.
If i could wish for anything it would be so I wouldn't have to worry about what others think about me. I worry about it alot. I always have a fear about failing to meet someones expectations. dad wants me to be a technition for X-ray machines and Im alright with that. as of right now i dont really have any interest of my own. when I think about this, it kind of makes me sad. I mean, whenever Im at school, everyone i know are soo sure of what they wanna be, what they wanna do with their lives. Everytime i reflect about what I wanna value in my life...I would have to say my very own kid. I know I dont have one but future wise, I know that I will love him/her. I will raise them to be good people.
If I was at the church, I'd be asking God about what I should do? are my values wrong? am I not being realistic?
I wanna just reflect on what i value, what my goals are, what I see as importance.
For many people, social status and a career is a crucial part in their lives. I'm not agruing that it isn't. Being supportive is good in the long run but I value many other things. I think just being a good person throughout your life is a good trait. I belive that those who are true, kind and fair shall be rewarded when we die. Sure a good career and a lot of money is great, but how much of that wealth could we really carry to the afterlife (if there is one).
All I know is, I could be the poorest person on earth, a complete fool and still be happy. Some of you might think that I am too simple, chill or carefree and that is understandable. My values in life are not the same as your and shouldn't they be? we're all humans but were not identical are we.
I just know that I wanna be honest as much as possible,
I wanna be able to help others,
I wanna be joe,
I just wanna be respected
I wanna be happy.
If i could wish for anything it would be so I wouldn't have to worry about what others think about me. I worry about it alot. I always have a fear about failing to meet someones expectations. dad wants me to be a technition for X-ray machines and Im alright with that. as of right now i dont really have any interest of my own. when I think about this, it kind of makes me sad. I mean, whenever Im at school, everyone i know are soo sure of what they wanna be, what they wanna do with their lives. Everytime i reflect about what I wanna value in my life...I would have to say my very own kid. I know I dont have one but future wise, I know that I will love him/her. I will raise them to be good people.
If I was at the church, I'd be asking God about what I should do? are my values wrong? am I not being realistic?
Monday, August 2, 2010
first dayt of work
over all? it was good but, I did run into one annoying customer.
my God -____- there are separation stick for a reason
so what happened was there was this group of girls before this man right and they had alot of stuff and they had the intention of separating some of the stuff so they could pay individually which was fine. They did not tell ME though the CASHIER so I thought it all went together. Then the freaken dude behind them didn't even set the bar thing so I scaned his shit with the rest of them -_______- I didn't wanna say anything cause I was "working" but thats just pretty stupid.
and he had the nerve to get bitchy at me too -_____-. I just wanted to make sure that everything was correct and that everyone got their things. I was so confused I just started over. I voided the old one and started rescaning now. I checked the girls out then continued with the man. as he grabbed the ketchup and some spray thing I already bagged. I asked him if that was his, he immediately said "OF COURSE IT IS!" but I check just in case though and he was right.
freaken customers man. most of them were nice but man that foreign guy has some anger issues.
mmm besides that, I think the fashion on glasses might come back to big frames. last time i went to get new glasses I got big frames and yes cause of taylor swift. They looked good kay. so after that, I started seeing more and more big frames. I saw one on this girl yesterday and I thought *whoa those look cool* =] yeah
work yesterday was 8 hours long. 8.25 dollars an hour so thats about 66 dollars right? the only thing I dont like about long hours like that is because I dont like standing and in this case I have to stand. I had 2 breaks and one lunch. breaks are 15min and lunches are 45 min. however, towards the end my supervisor called me back to work even though I hadn't had my break yet. eh whatever its fine.
I did fail though. there were two customers that new the system better than me -_____- sadness. what else did i fail at...i forgot.
I did go to church yesterday =] in the morning like 9:30 am. -______- but the mass was fun though. it was kind of humorous. the father was like "ullluuuulluuu" idk how to explain it it sounded like indians. i also liked the sermon, interesting. there was this vietnamese family infront of us. (mom, dad, two brothers, and a sister. boys were about 10 and she was about 3 or 4. I liked her ^_____^ shes kind of a trouble maker but she's really cute and she like to play with everyone. she tickled or what she thought was tickling her brothers lol. then when it was time to offer money she was nervous but then ran and put it into the basket and went back to mom to get more. after doin it like 3 times her mome didn't have anything else to give her and the little girl just goes grabs her moms bag which was about the same size as her LMAO. it looked like the load was too much for her =] cute. then when it was time to kneel she stood on the kneeling thing while the rest of the family kneeled. she then got to her knees and was like "daddy loook" and her dad was like "good job! :D" *thumbs up* she got up though and went to her mom. there wasn't any space between the mom and the son so what the little girl did was she pushed both of them right from the middle and made her own little spot ^_______^ wth! right? I thought that was pretty cute.
my God -____- there are separation stick for a reason
so what happened was there was this group of girls before this man right and they had alot of stuff and they had the intention of separating some of the stuff so they could pay individually which was fine. They did not tell ME though the CASHIER so I thought it all went together. Then the freaken dude behind them didn't even set the bar thing so I scaned his shit with the rest of them -_______- I didn't wanna say anything cause I was "working" but thats just pretty stupid.
and he had the nerve to get bitchy at me too -_____-. I just wanted to make sure that everything was correct and that everyone got their things. I was so confused I just started over. I voided the old one and started rescaning now. I checked the girls out then continued with the man. as he grabbed the ketchup and some spray thing I already bagged. I asked him if that was his, he immediately said "OF COURSE IT IS!" but I check just in case though and he was right.
freaken customers man. most of them were nice but man that foreign guy has some anger issues.
mmm besides that, I think the fashion on glasses might come back to big frames. last time i went to get new glasses I got big frames and yes cause of taylor swift. They looked good kay. so after that, I started seeing more and more big frames. I saw one on this girl yesterday and I thought *whoa those look cool* =] yeah
work yesterday was 8 hours long. 8.25 dollars an hour so thats about 66 dollars right? the only thing I dont like about long hours like that is because I dont like standing and in this case I have to stand. I had 2 breaks and one lunch. breaks are 15min and lunches are 45 min. however, towards the end my supervisor called me back to work even though I hadn't had my break yet. eh whatever its fine.
I did fail though. there were two customers that new the system better than me -_____- sadness. what else did i fail at...i forgot.
I did go to church yesterday =] in the morning like 9:30 am. -______- but the mass was fun though. it was kind of humorous. the father was like "ullluuuulluuu" idk how to explain it it sounded like indians. i also liked the sermon, interesting. there was this vietnamese family infront of us. (mom, dad, two brothers, and a sister. boys were about 10 and she was about 3 or 4. I liked her ^_____^ shes kind of a trouble maker but she's really cute and she like to play with everyone. she tickled or what she thought was tickling her brothers lol. then when it was time to offer money she was nervous but then ran and put it into the basket and went back to mom to get more. after doin it like 3 times her mome didn't have anything else to give her and the little girl just goes grabs her moms bag which was about the same size as her LMAO. it looked like the load was too much for her =] cute. then when it was time to kneel she stood on the kneeling thing while the rest of the family kneeled. she then got to her knees and was like "daddy loook" and her dad was like "good job! :D" *thumbs up* she got up though and went to her mom. there wasn't any space between the mom and the son so what the little girl did was she pushed both of them right from the middle and made her own little spot ^_______^ wth! right? I thought that was pretty cute.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Joe on Cloud 9
yeah thats right! thats what I feel like right now.
imma sleep easy tonight.
good day good day.
if any joe...remember that today was a good day and that you confronted and got it out of yo system
Cloud 9 baby Cloud 9
idk where that is but it sounds like it feels reeeeaaaallll good
also "new record" *congratulations joe*
yes..yes it was amazing.
i've never made so many great jokes in my entire life and i just threw it all down tonight.
it was *think* im sorry folks the only word i could possible think of is EPIC
yes, thats right EPIC I said it was EPIC.
why do you ask? Beeeecauseeee it was that good? thats right!
MAN I FEEL GOOD. I FEEL LIKE "Im glowing" LMAO
Good stuff Good stuff.
I could get pissed on by my baby cousin again and I still would we in a outstanding mood. that my friend is Cloud 9.
Idk why I keep sayin that lol. I don't even know what Im saying anymore. Im crazy people~ I just wanted to document this as the day Joe reached Cloud 9.
I didn't wanna say Maximum happiness because that just meant that I won't ever be happier and that thought kinda made me sad so I just called it Cloud 9.
I also called it Cloud 9 because It was in "Magic" by B.O.B.
good song good song
Does it sound like im high? not that I would know what high was like but if I had to guess...than this is pretty damn close I think.
Good day today Good day.
thank you God, its been a wonderful day. I wished all my days were like this but we can't all live in happiness always right? anyways thank you thank you thank you. Let hope for an even better day tomorrow ^________^
what to blog about
well, big number today...I got peed on. my little cousin couldn't control his bladder yet so he leaked on me as I was holding him. when I put him down I saw that my sleeve was wet.
I was like wth? I know he drooled on me on my shoulder but I my arm was holding him. then it struck me, I smelled the shirt and it smelled gross. I turned him around and noticed that his pants leaked right in the middle -_______-
I have no idea how I didn't notice that my arm got wet. I didn't even feel it get warmer at all. gay~ so I went to the restroom and poured water on my sleeve for and then grabbed some paper and headed outside to air dry but the stench was still there. grooossssss.
of course I changed when I got home, so its all good.
kristine....hmmmm. idk. yeah i don't think imma let you guys know about this subject. I just a secret that just stays with me and only me.
party was okay. i smiled alot, at everyone and everything actually. the food was decent.
my tongue has a tiny hole from eatting tooo much hot food. damn you smoke eatters D:< I want it too heal. heal. HEALLLLLLL.
I have work tomorrow at 1:45 till 9:45 that should be interesting =]
gotta get better at this.
i think thats all for now
I was like wth? I know he drooled on me on my shoulder but I my arm was holding him. then it struck me, I smelled the shirt and it smelled gross. I turned him around and noticed that his pants leaked right in the middle -_______-
I have no idea how I didn't notice that my arm got wet. I didn't even feel it get warmer at all. gay~ so I went to the restroom and poured water on my sleeve for and then grabbed some paper and headed outside to air dry but the stench was still there. grooossssss.
of course I changed when I got home, so its all good.
kristine....hmmmm. idk. yeah i don't think imma let you guys know about this subject. I just a secret that just stays with me and only me.
party was okay. i smiled alot, at everyone and everything actually. the food was decent.
my tongue has a tiny hole from eatting tooo much hot food. damn you smoke eatters D:< I want it too heal. heal. HEALLLLLLL.
I have work tomorrow at 1:45 till 9:45 that should be interesting =]
gotta get better at this.
i think thats all for now
Friday, July 30, 2010
I got the magic in me~
This song has been stuck in my head ^_____^
so yesterday, even though I woke up early I couldn't wash my car right away cause my mom's car was still in the drive through. she was about to leave so i just waited till she was done. After she left for work peter and I just grabbed the car wash supplies and started cleaning. Peter waxed his car but I didn't have time to wax it yesterday so I just said no. idk when my car is waxed it kinda has a glow from the sun glare. idk if i even wanna wax it at all. I'll try it out next time i guess and if I don't like it then i wont apply it anymore.
so after I finished I went to pick up kristine from the lightrail. We came back and peter finished already so we just went inside. I took a shower and they just chilled i guess. Afterwards we just chilled in my room. she helped me finish posting up photos in my room.
:/ idk i thought i had more photos but I guess not =] It's organized though so I'm happy ^____^ gotta print more photos when I have more money hahaha. Then peter took my car and left to help tiffany shop for something at best buys. (his car was low on gas) we then just chilled. then wils called and wanted us to come home soon so we could play badminton. I didn't wanna play in the heat though -______- we waited till peter came home and I drove to their house. I didn't eat at home so I was hungry hahaha. when I got there kristine made me an omlet. yup. i poured too much soy sauce though but it was fine =] then I think we played COD. my god, Krisine got GOOD at COD. it was like 5 minutes in the game and I was just dying. I remember when she didn't even know how to play and now shes alot better. I think she could beat peter lol. wils got good too. we were kinda even when we played but now he owns me at knifing. crazy crazy. hahah. it was fun though.
mmm. then their mom came home and she made food for us. we ate cleaned up and then played like 20 mins of COD and left for BBC. It was crowded and expensive at night though o.o so we just came home and decided to help cut the dogs hair. the shaggy dogs has soooo much hair. buy the end of it we had a ball. It was just a little bit smaller than a baseball. crazy huh. I hella just wanted to light it on fire but we failed lol. it didn't even burn. I think I sqeezed and packed it too much that the fire had no oxyent inside to burn. we went inside and just chilled till like 12:40am and I left. wilson showed me a kev jumba video lmao. "alpha kenny body" GG.
I drove home fine nothing happened. came home and saw that everyone was still there. uyen, tony and phuoc anh were watching saw V, the others were in the game room star craft II and planning for the trip next week. I reheated some pizza and watched the movie with them. I ended up not having to drive anyone home so when they left I just went to bed. woke up at...dunno..dont remember. actually dad came into my room this morning o.o said something and left. i was half dazed so I don't recall what he was asking/saying.
so yesterday, even though I woke up early I couldn't wash my car right away cause my mom's car was still in the drive through. she was about to leave so i just waited till she was done. After she left for work peter and I just grabbed the car wash supplies and started cleaning. Peter waxed his car but I didn't have time to wax it yesterday so I just said no. idk when my car is waxed it kinda has a glow from the sun glare. idk if i even wanna wax it at all. I'll try it out next time i guess and if I don't like it then i wont apply it anymore.
so after I finished I went to pick up kristine from the lightrail. We came back and peter finished already so we just went inside. I took a shower and they just chilled i guess. Afterwards we just chilled in my room. she helped me finish posting up photos in my room.
:/ idk i thought i had more photos but I guess not =] It's organized though so I'm happy ^____^ gotta print more photos when I have more money hahaha. Then peter took my car and left to help tiffany shop for something at best buys. (his car was low on gas) we then just chilled. then wils called and wanted us to come home soon so we could play badminton. I didn't wanna play in the heat though -______- we waited till peter came home and I drove to their house. I didn't eat at home so I was hungry hahaha. when I got there kristine made me an omlet. yup. i poured too much soy sauce though but it was fine =] then I think we played COD. my god, Krisine got GOOD at COD. it was like 5 minutes in the game and I was just dying. I remember when she didn't even know how to play and now shes alot better. I think she could beat peter lol. wils got good too. we were kinda even when we played but now he owns me at knifing. crazy crazy. hahah. it was fun though.
mmm. then their mom came home and she made food for us. we ate cleaned up and then played like 20 mins of COD and left for BBC. It was crowded and expensive at night though o.o so we just came home and decided to help cut the dogs hair. the shaggy dogs has soooo much hair. buy the end of it we had a ball. It was just a little bit smaller than a baseball. crazy huh. I hella just wanted to light it on fire but we failed lol. it didn't even burn. I think I sqeezed and packed it too much that the fire had no oxyent inside to burn. we went inside and just chilled till like 12:40am and I left. wilson showed me a kev jumba video lmao. "alpha kenny body" GG.
I drove home fine nothing happened. came home and saw that everyone was still there. uyen, tony and phuoc anh were watching saw V, the others were in the game room star craft II and planning for the trip next week. I reheated some pizza and watched the movie with them. I ended up not having to drive anyone home so when they left I just went to bed. woke up at...dunno..dont remember. actually dad came into my room this morning o.o said something and left. i was half dazed so I don't recall what he was asking/saying.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
fishing
Originally i was supposed to watch this series with phuoc anh and peter today but apparently paul and nang said we were goin fishing today so o.o I just went along.
woke up about 10:30 ish, parents were gone and peter wasn't even awake. I got up...and watched a movie? o.o then there was a door bell
it was daniel o.o
me: (what...the..heck?) what are you doin here? o.o
him: i was in the neighborhood =]
so he came in and chilled for a bit.
peter and I got ready and grabed the fishing gear.
I drove him home before we left.
we didn't catch any fish :/ came back to the house
everyone else went to buy smoke eaters. phuoc anh and i stayed home and gamed for a bit.
they came home with more people (cang, tony, van)
we dined and watched "never back down"? o.o i think that was the title.
then we played games till now.
I think imma call in tomorrow if they need people to work. I kinda want more practice before sunday =] i need to be more calm when working. so nervous.
woke up about 10:30 ish, parents were gone and peter wasn't even awake. I got up...and watched a movie? o.o then there was a door bell
it was daniel o.o
me: (what...the..heck?) what are you doin here? o.o
him: i was in the neighborhood =]
so he came in and chilled for a bit.
peter and I got ready and grabed the fishing gear.
I drove him home before we left.
we didn't catch any fish :/ came back to the house
everyone else went to buy smoke eaters. phuoc anh and i stayed home and gamed for a bit.
they came home with more people (cang, tony, van)
we dined and watched "never back down"? o.o i think that was the title.
then we played games till now.
I think imma call in tomorrow if they need people to work. I kinda want more practice before sunday =] i need to be more calm when working. so nervous.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
hmmm. here's what happened from my point of view. you can't really judge unless you get two sides of the arguement right so dont spread any of this if you don't know the "truth" from boths sides kay? :/ idk why. i just wanted to say that cause people tend to just assume that after hearing something that its the "truth" or its a fact. so yeah
what I just wanted to bring up was, was i wrong when I said this?
so peter he wanted to test our new router on his ps3 so I turned off my ps2 and let him do what he wanted. instead he went to look at The last avatar review. after a bit of time I asked him if he was gonna use the tv. he said yeah so i just wondered around and ended up grabbing a dish of pasta. As I heated it up he started to test the ps3. I grabbed my pasta and brought it to the table sorta behind him. I started adding seasoning. peter looks back and asks "can you get me some?" I said "no". He then proceeded to ask "why not?" I answered "cause I didn't want to". He kept asking the same thing over and over so I asked my mom (who was at the table where the pasta was) and she said (in vietnamese) "he's sitting there playing games and he wants me to get food for him? why doesn't he get it himself? its right there?" peter then said to me "I asked you to get it not mom" I told him that "Well, I didn't wanna get it so~" (this next part is kinda funny) He actually threatened me with food. he said, " if I have to go get it, you're never gonna eat anything that I buy". I then kinda smiled and just ate there quietly. He later got up and got his food.
Im pretty sure he aint gonna let me eat anything he buys anymore but I really don't even care. It's not like Imma go die from hunger if I don't eat the food that he buys. there's always something to eat at home even though it might not be to my liking but its still edible food none the less so I think I can survive. Plus the only reason I usually ate his food was because he couldn't finish it or that it looked good. so yeah, but thats cause I didn't have money. now I gotta job, I don't have to depend on him anymore so Idk why the hell I have to submit to him for.
idk in a way i see peter as a very spoiled kid. if he doesn't get what he wants he'll just throw a tantrum. such a child. I mean is it that hard to go get your own food? o.o I mean he eats out so he doesn't have to do the dishes? wtf right? my mom makes food for the entire family even if he doesn't eat shouldn't he still have the responsiblities of chores? o.o i mean what if I did the same thing. if I ate out and had the same exact illusion that I don't have to clean dishes if I ate out who the hell will do the dishes at home? o.o hes just stupid thats what I think. he may be better at technology and all that materialistic stuff but he aint someone I'd say is a good person. I personally rarely ask him for anything and there are some reasons for that. one, he tends to not follow through with them. so like dude you gave me hope and then killed it. wtf? 2. well thats basically it, its cause he doesn't follow through so theres no point in asking him for anything. why would you go to a unreliable source right? so yeah. idk even know what Im talking about anymore. so yeah, I still would've said no to him anyways. and for him to threaten me? you child.
what I just wanted to bring up was, was i wrong when I said this?
so peter he wanted to test our new router on his ps3 so I turned off my ps2 and let him do what he wanted. instead he went to look at The last avatar review. after a bit of time I asked him if he was gonna use the tv. he said yeah so i just wondered around and ended up grabbing a dish of pasta. As I heated it up he started to test the ps3. I grabbed my pasta and brought it to the table sorta behind him. I started adding seasoning. peter looks back and asks "can you get me some?" I said "no". He then proceeded to ask "why not?" I answered "cause I didn't want to". He kept asking the same thing over and over so I asked my mom (who was at the table where the pasta was) and she said (in vietnamese) "he's sitting there playing games and he wants me to get food for him? why doesn't he get it himself? its right there?" peter then said to me "I asked you to get it not mom" I told him that "Well, I didn't wanna get it so~" (this next part is kinda funny) He actually threatened me with food. he said, " if I have to go get it, you're never gonna eat anything that I buy". I then kinda smiled and just ate there quietly. He later got up and got his food.
Im pretty sure he aint gonna let me eat anything he buys anymore but I really don't even care. It's not like Imma go die from hunger if I don't eat the food that he buys. there's always something to eat at home even though it might not be to my liking but its still edible food none the less so I think I can survive. Plus the only reason I usually ate his food was because he couldn't finish it or that it looked good. so yeah, but thats cause I didn't have money. now I gotta job, I don't have to depend on him anymore so Idk why the hell I have to submit to him for.
idk in a way i see peter as a very spoiled kid. if he doesn't get what he wants he'll just throw a tantrum. such a child. I mean is it that hard to go get your own food? o.o I mean he eats out so he doesn't have to do the dishes? wtf right? my mom makes food for the entire family even if he doesn't eat shouldn't he still have the responsiblities of chores? o.o i mean what if I did the same thing. if I ate out and had the same exact illusion that I don't have to clean dishes if I ate out who the hell will do the dishes at home? o.o hes just stupid thats what I think. he may be better at technology and all that materialistic stuff but he aint someone I'd say is a good person. I personally rarely ask him for anything and there are some reasons for that. one, he tends to not follow through with them. so like dude you gave me hope and then killed it. wtf? 2. well thats basically it, its cause he doesn't follow through so theres no point in asking him for anything. why would you go to a unreliable source right? so yeah. idk even know what Im talking about anymore. so yeah, I still would've said no to him anyways. and for him to threaten me? you child.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Red Robbin you fail
I dislike the costumer service that Peter, Eric, Van and I got from our waiter.
It was so bad~ -_______- hope she gets fired.
(as she serviced us she had treated us very badly. her mood: annoyed, grumpy, idk bitchy)
story goes~
she greeted us and asked for our order
we told her that we weren't ready to order yet but asked if we could get drinks first.
she was alright with that so we ordered our drinks first and continued to decide what we wanted.
eric and I already ate alot at chillies and weren't really hungry so we weren't even gonna eat or just leach.
she came back and asked if we were ready to order.
peter and van ordered. eric and I just said that we weren't gonna order.
she then proceeded to say that if we weren't eating she was gonna charge us a side of fries.
at that point I was like wtf? but peter was paying so I just waited for him to decide.
peter said okay and she took our menus.
okay here, eric said when she took his menu she YANKED it out of his hands.
My menu was under my napkin and utensils. she pulls it from under it and just knocks my fork and knife on the table.
I was really like WTF. idk if the table is even clean?! you know what, she didn't even apologize to me. -_______- idk how the hell she got the job.
later she comes back to say that her shift was over and that "Ryan" was gonna take over for us.
I did not like her. fuck i wish I recorded that, if you guys saw it you'd be like wtf.sigh. whatever. my respect for red robbin declined from that visit. screw her. hope she gets fired. =] feels good to vent. I feel better now.
It was so bad~ -_______- hope she gets fired.
(as she serviced us she had treated us very badly. her mood: annoyed, grumpy, idk bitchy)
story goes~
she greeted us and asked for our order
we told her that we weren't ready to order yet but asked if we could get drinks first.
she was alright with that so we ordered our drinks first and continued to decide what we wanted.
eric and I already ate alot at chillies and weren't really hungry so we weren't even gonna eat or just leach.
she came back and asked if we were ready to order.
peter and van ordered. eric and I just said that we weren't gonna order.
she then proceeded to say that if we weren't eating she was gonna charge us a side of fries.
at that point I was like wtf? but peter was paying so I just waited for him to decide.
peter said okay and she took our menus.
okay here, eric said when she took his menu she YANKED it out of his hands.
My menu was under my napkin and utensils. she pulls it from under it and just knocks my fork and knife on the table.
I was really like WTF. idk if the table is even clean?! you know what, she didn't even apologize to me. -_______- idk how the hell she got the job.
later she comes back to say that her shift was over and that "Ryan" was gonna take over for us.
I did not like her. fuck i wish I recorded that, if you guys saw it you'd be like wtf.sigh. whatever. my respect for red robbin declined from that visit. screw her. hope she gets fired. =] feels good to vent. I feel better now.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
i just wasted time
so basically I logged into blogger and log off than changed my mind and logged back in -_______-
I notice I blog more on this than of tumble
I don't know why. I just prefer typing stuff on here =]
Lately as in like two days now all ive been doing is searching for funny japanese commercials or pranks that they did. Its starting to get harder to find new one hahaha
(gotta find something else to do ^___^)
got my new phone but I don't really use it cause there's like only a couple of people on my contact right now and I haven't gotten around to asking people their numbers again :/
still sleeping downstairs. couch =]
I want my ipod fixed -______- damn you eric~
been goin on facebook alot, I don't think thats a good sign -_____-
nothing's good on tv anymore except for the late night simpsons, family guy, or south park. been watching the dragon ball z cai idk what that really means looks the same as the original if you ask me. I aint a true fan but i do know alot. been doin that. ummm...
Avatar brings me tears now (not real tears) -_______- whenever I think of the awesome series I think about how horrible the movie was...damn you M. Night Shyamalan. you killed it you killed the series. Idk how people could say they even liked it. most of the people that liked it were people that never saw the series before. the series is thousands of times better than that shit movie -________- God i hate the director so much right now. killed it...just killed it. ugh
I think i got hired ._________. according to my mom, if they asked you to attend orientation that just means you're hired? idk. not really sure thats how it works. I really wanna work though *money~*
I think in like two max is three years I could buy myself a mini ^______^ idk if i wanna use it all in one thing like that though :/ still thinking but just the thought of my own cooper *dies*
I also need a new micro SD. need more memory :D
mosquito bites are slowly goin away. sad enough my house had a mosquito that I didn't know about. been having recent bites. I kept wondering where it was coming from. I killed it though so I shouldn't be having anymore bites.
Watching despicable me tomor..well today basically. should i sleep or surf the web....
i think imma stay up =] or at least try to ^^
I notice I blog more on this than of tumble
I don't know why. I just prefer typing stuff on here =]
Lately as in like two days now all ive been doing is searching for funny japanese commercials or pranks that they did. Its starting to get harder to find new one hahaha
(gotta find something else to do ^___^)
got my new phone but I don't really use it cause there's like only a couple of people on my contact right now and I haven't gotten around to asking people their numbers again :/
still sleeping downstairs. couch =]
I want my ipod fixed -______- damn you eric~
been goin on facebook alot, I don't think thats a good sign -_____-
nothing's good on tv anymore except for the late night simpsons, family guy, or south park. been watching the dragon ball z cai idk what that really means looks the same as the original if you ask me. I aint a true fan but i do know alot. been doin that. ummm...
Avatar brings me tears now (not real tears) -_______- whenever I think of the awesome series I think about how horrible the movie was...damn you M. Night Shyamalan. you killed it you killed the series. Idk how people could say they even liked it. most of the people that liked it were people that never saw the series before. the series is thousands of times better than that shit movie -________- God i hate the director so much right now. killed it...just killed it. ugh
I think i got hired ._________. according to my mom, if they asked you to attend orientation that just means you're hired? idk. not really sure thats how it works. I really wanna work though *money~*
I think in like two max is three years I could buy myself a mini ^______^ idk if i wanna use it all in one thing like that though :/ still thinking but just the thought of my own cooper *dies*
I also need a new micro SD. need more memory :D
mosquito bites are slowly goin away. sad enough my house had a mosquito that I didn't know about. been having recent bites. I kept wondering where it was coming from. I killed it though so I shouldn't be having anymore bites.
Watching despicable me tomor..well today basically. should i sleep or surf the web....
i think imma stay up =] or at least try to ^^
Thursday, July 15, 2010
sooooo
what have i done-
I finally did some of the dishes in the sink, no one else did them -_____-
it seriously got too disgusting. I hate it when someone finishes their food and don't dump the trash into THE TRASH. so what happened was the bowl just sat there for like a few days and fungus started to grow. I didn't even notice it until today when i was cleaning it. -_____- groossss.
I called target again today cause they didn't set up an appointment with me for orientation. they looked up my name and told me that I was gonna get a call next week =] thats good right? ^____^ Im just praying for a job right now. I think it'll be more fun than staying home all day. blah.
well I did wash my clothes right after camping but i just threw em on my bed and left them there. I barely even sleep in my room anymore ._____. I sleep downstairs on the couch. I don't even know why. maybe its cause there's a tv? too lazy? more things to do down here? idk.
Oh! we finally got rid of the fridge downstairs along with our old kitchen air vent thing o__o idk what it's called. they sent us a slip of paper saying that they were looking for things people don't need or don't want anymore to put them outside and stick the paper on it and they'll take it away.
Oh shoot I probably should screw the lid for the light upstairs cause dad replaced the bulb. hmmm.
not down to wash the dogs. hell no -____- every time i do them I have to bend down for a long period of time and that just hurts later after i stand up.
our bunnies died :/ somehow the cage was loose and they ran out and I think our dogs killed them not sure. I don't think they were bleeding but they were just laying everywhere when my mom came home.
dunno what else to say :/ thats it for now
chow
I finally did some of the dishes in the sink, no one else did them -_____-
it seriously got too disgusting. I hate it when someone finishes their food and don't dump the trash into THE TRASH. so what happened was the bowl just sat there for like a few days and fungus started to grow. I didn't even notice it until today when i was cleaning it. -_____- groossss.
I called target again today cause they didn't set up an appointment with me for orientation. they looked up my name and told me that I was gonna get a call next week =] thats good right? ^____^ Im just praying for a job right now. I think it'll be more fun than staying home all day. blah.
well I did wash my clothes right after camping but i just threw em on my bed and left them there. I barely even sleep in my room anymore ._____. I sleep downstairs on the couch. I don't even know why. maybe its cause there's a tv? too lazy? more things to do down here? idk.
Oh! we finally got rid of the fridge downstairs along with our old kitchen air vent thing o__o idk what it's called. they sent us a slip of paper saying that they were looking for things people don't need or don't want anymore to put them outside and stick the paper on it and they'll take it away.
Oh shoot I probably should screw the lid for the light upstairs cause dad replaced the bulb. hmmm.
not down to wash the dogs. hell no -____- every time i do them I have to bend down for a long period of time and that just hurts later after i stand up.
our bunnies died :/ somehow the cage was loose and they ran out and I think our dogs killed them not sure. I don't think they were bleeding but they were just laying everywhere when my mom came home.
dunno what else to say :/ thats it for now
chow
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
o.O
hmm. well its pretty late right now.
dunno why I'm even blogging right now. to update I guess :/
so phone came in. good god yes I finally have a phone again.
Its peter's old phone the Xenon. its blue. they didn't have any other color.
it has a key pad so texting is alot easier now =]
mmm
got home from camping yesterday. mom said my phone came in so i got excited and started reading the manual and testing it out. half way though I couldn't take it anymore. I took a nap and woke up later for dinner and mass.
camping left me with a sore neck from carrying 2 gallons on a long hike and 15 mosquito bites that are just itching me to death -____-
I still haven't done the dishes yet
made shimp today. like spices and everything o__o camping influenced me i think. trying to clean the freezer.
eric came over for a bit today but he had to go home cause we were gonna go out.
went to a hot pot. wasn't bad. 15 was reasonable.
went to watch predators afterwards
the movie wasn't bad, lots of action. a whole lot better than the last airbender.
came home and saw the note tag from the morning and told myself that i was gonna respond to it so thats what i did =]
now im here and blogging
chow chow
dunno why I'm even blogging right now. to update I guess :/
so phone came in. good god yes I finally have a phone again.
Its peter's old phone the Xenon. its blue. they didn't have any other color.
it has a key pad so texting is alot easier now =]
mmm
got home from camping yesterday. mom said my phone came in so i got excited and started reading the manual and testing it out. half way though I couldn't take it anymore. I took a nap and woke up later for dinner and mass.
camping left me with a sore neck from carrying 2 gallons on a long hike and 15 mosquito bites that are just itching me to death -____-
I still haven't done the dishes yet
made shimp today. like spices and everything o__o camping influenced me i think. trying to clean the freezer.
eric came over for a bit today but he had to go home cause we were gonna go out.
went to a hot pot. wasn't bad. 15 was reasonable.
went to watch predators afterwards
the movie wasn't bad, lots of action. a whole lot better than the last airbender.
came home and saw the note tag from the morning and told myself that i was gonna respond to it so thats what i did =]
now im here and blogging
chow chow
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
women are pretty messed up
seriously what is up with them. Is it just me or is it always the girl that leaves? o_o
Movies always portrayed men as the evil ones that betray their wife and have affairs but in reality I think women are the real villains.
sure, there are some men that are players, cheaters and straight up ass holes. set aside the movies though, most guys aren't like that at all O____O most of them are nice, dependable, respectable and committed.
I don't believe that I have ever heard/seen a girl more committed than the guy. Is any girl committed? at all? -_______-
:/ when will I find someone that is more committed than me...does such a person even exist? or maybe I should back down a little, have some flaws so the girls won't feel so unworthy -_____-
from what I know, women tend to feel like that they're not good enough for some strange reason. where is their self esteem? why can't they believe that they're good enough for the guys.
whatever, the next woman in my life is gonna be screwed. (not literally -______-) but yeah
Movies always portrayed men as the evil ones that betray their wife and have affairs but in reality I think women are the real villains.
sure, there are some men that are players, cheaters and straight up ass holes. set aside the movies though, most guys aren't like that at all O____O most of them are nice, dependable, respectable and committed.
I don't believe that I have ever heard/seen a girl more committed than the guy. Is any girl committed? at all? -_______-
:/ when will I find someone that is more committed than me...does such a person even exist? or maybe I should back down a little, have some flaws so the girls won't feel so unworthy -_____-
from what I know, women tend to feel like that they're not good enough for some strange reason. where is their self esteem? why can't they believe that they're good enough for the guys.
whatever, the next woman in my life is gonna be screwed. (not literally -______-) but yeah
1:22am
yes its that late, eric, van, peter and I were playing mario party eight for awhile.
recap of today. bored outta my mind.
I was just waiting for my phone to come in or for target to call me to set up orientation.
neither happened.
I can't remember if i wrote down the contacts at target to be my cell number or house number.
I think I set it as my cell number because i thought that my phone was gonna come in any day now (mom "s-a-i-d" so). idk if they attempted to call the my unactivated phone or not -______-
sigh, freaken A. I was thinking of goin to target and confirming it :/ probably talk to my parents tomorrow if my phone doesn't come in.
it was unproductive today. sat around. games. movie. movie was good actually =]
Forgetting Sarah Marshall lol good stuff, good stuff
didn't work out today -_____-
i'm still waitlisted on tai chi :/
my ipod is still dead so there is no other way to connect with people unless i use the computer but i don't wanna spend hours looking at a computer.
fucken eric man >:( im still pissed about it. fucken wiped my ipod clean. uggghhhhh
besides that, its so hard for me to eat junk food :/ idk how people do it
I just can't muster up the will to eat chips or drink a ton of soda.
I never liked chips. chips are useless -____- they don't fill me up, they aren't health, waste of money and takes up space. I know soda I could drink but once i start i'll just go through a phase where i drink alot of it at once and i'd rather avoid that. so minusing all the crap food in my house, I find it really hard for me to eat stuff. sigh
camping is this friday. I hope all i have to do is just go.
Im not sure if i wanna participate in the events though :/ i'd seriously rather just observe. omg the hike there is gonna be long :(
there's gonna be swimming though :D
I still gotta find a tent. -_-
recap of today. bored outta my mind.
I was just waiting for my phone to come in or for target to call me to set up orientation.
neither happened.
I can't remember if i wrote down the contacts at target to be my cell number or house number.
I think I set it as my cell number because i thought that my phone was gonna come in any day now (mom "s-a-i-d" so). idk if they attempted to call the my unactivated phone or not -______-
sigh, freaken A. I was thinking of goin to target and confirming it :/ probably talk to my parents tomorrow if my phone doesn't come in.
it was unproductive today. sat around. games. movie. movie was good actually =]
Forgetting Sarah Marshall lol good stuff, good stuff
didn't work out today -_____-
i'm still waitlisted on tai chi :/
my ipod is still dead so there is no other way to connect with people unless i use the computer but i don't wanna spend hours looking at a computer.
fucken eric man >:( im still pissed about it. fucken wiped my ipod clean. uggghhhhh
besides that, its so hard for me to eat junk food :/ idk how people do it
I just can't muster up the will to eat chips or drink a ton of soda.
I never liked chips. chips are useless -____- they don't fill me up, they aren't health, waste of money and takes up space. I know soda I could drink but once i start i'll just go through a phase where i drink alot of it at once and i'd rather avoid that. so minusing all the crap food in my house, I find it really hard for me to eat stuff. sigh
camping is this friday. I hope all i have to do is just go.
Im not sure if i wanna participate in the events though :/ i'd seriously rather just observe. omg the hike there is gonna be long :(
there's gonna be swimming though :D
I still gotta find a tent. -_-
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
^____^
there was some stuff i forgot to mention about my nephew hahaha
while he was playing with me he recited the walmart motto.
He was like, "saaave mooonnneeey, livveee beetttter waaaaalmart" lol ^____^
Oh! also he told me that his math teacher is russian. I hella died laughing xD
what else was therrrreee...I know there was alot of things that I had but im having trouble remembering it..hmmm :/
Kiet is really goofy actually, alot like me when I was his age O.O
anyways yesterday someone decided to light fireworks at like 10 o'clock -______-
are you retarded? 4th of July was yesterday, today's the 5th idiot. well today's the 6th but im talking in terms of yesterday.
had a dream today. I hella forgot after being startled by the Fed ex guy -______-
He forced me to wake up, made me lose my dream and made me think that my phone came in.
rahhhhh
while he was playing with me he recited the walmart motto.
He was like, "saaave mooonnneeey, livveee beetttter waaaaalmart" lol ^____^
Oh! also he told me that his math teacher is russian. I hella died laughing xD
what else was therrrreee...I know there was alot of things that I had but im having trouble remembering it..hmmm :/
Kiet is really goofy actually, alot like me when I was his age O.O
anyways yesterday someone decided to light fireworks at like 10 o'clock -______-
are you retarded? 4th of July was yesterday, today's the 5th idiot. well today's the 6th but im talking in terms of yesterday.
had a dream today. I hella forgot after being startled by the Fed ex guy -______-
He forced me to wake up, made me lose my dream and made me think that my phone came in.
rahhhhh
Sunday, July 4, 2010
4th of July 2010
spent the day with the family today =] basically my cousin kiet.
he and his parents traveled 10hr from Oregon to California just to visit the family.
kiet sorta grew, not much but he's taller none the less =]
He talks ALOT! which is good ^_____^
kept asking me if i wanted to play a game with him/for him lol
we ate dim sum in the morning. then peter split afterwards and mom, cousin, nephew and I went to valley fair to try to find a dress for my cousin to wear for some wedding.
I hung out with kiet most of the time. we went to the Disney store and my mom bought him a Parry the platypus plushy or aka Mr. P. He's an agent from a cartoon ^____^
He watches some of the shows I watch hahaha he kept asking me "did yuuu seeee the onee abbbboooout..." ^____^
we didn't find a dress and ran outta time so we headed home. My cousin-in-law bought two "Sau rien"? I forgot what they called it in america. the adults took it apart while kiet and i watched some spongebob and then played brawl lol. he's not bad not bad ^____^
I asked him if he ever watched avatar the last airbender ^____^
he didn't know what it was. found out that his mom doesn't approve of him watching fighting cartoons. darn~. well I understood her intensions so I didn't let him watch it =]
we then went out to dinner. ate some rice dish at a restaurant.
they left and mom, dad and I went to youth mass.
choir really did bad today :/ but i guess thats fine =]
Fireworks :/
fail. dad tried to park at a bus stop -______- idiot (wished a cop pulled buy to make this memorable)
then we decided to move towards the freeway cause the trees were blocking most of the fireworks and if we moved now we might be able to catch the final on the bridge.
people couldn't drive for shit cause they were too preoccupied with the lights.
as we appoached the intersection the light turned yellow, dad sped up and we were now under a bridge. we then proceeded to watch the "super final fireworks" under the bridge. no we saw nothing except for when the fireworks took off.
when we got home however, one of our neighbors (mexicans) shot fireworks this year :D it was loud it was bright and it scared the five nearest cars when it took off the ground.
Last years was better =]
he and his parents traveled 10hr from Oregon to California just to visit the family.
kiet sorta grew, not much but he's taller none the less =]
He talks ALOT! which is good ^_____^
kept asking me if i wanted to play a game with him/for him lol
we ate dim sum in the morning. then peter split afterwards and mom, cousin, nephew and I went to valley fair to try to find a dress for my cousin to wear for some wedding.
I hung out with kiet most of the time. we went to the Disney store and my mom bought him a Parry the platypus plushy or aka Mr. P. He's an agent from a cartoon ^____^
He watches some of the shows I watch hahaha he kept asking me "did yuuu seeee the onee abbbboooout..." ^____^
we didn't find a dress and ran outta time so we headed home. My cousin-in-law bought two "Sau rien"? I forgot what they called it in america. the adults took it apart while kiet and i watched some spongebob and then played brawl lol. he's not bad not bad ^____^
I asked him if he ever watched avatar the last airbender ^____^
he didn't know what it was. found out that his mom doesn't approve of him watching fighting cartoons. darn~. well I understood her intensions so I didn't let him watch it =]
we then went out to dinner. ate some rice dish at a restaurant.
they left and mom, dad and I went to youth mass.
choir really did bad today :/ but i guess thats fine =]
Fireworks :/
fail. dad tried to park at a bus stop -______- idiot (wished a cop pulled buy to make this memorable)
then we decided to move towards the freeway cause the trees were blocking most of the fireworks and if we moved now we might be able to catch the final on the bridge.
people couldn't drive for shit cause they were too preoccupied with the lights.
as we appoached the intersection the light turned yellow, dad sped up and we were now under a bridge. we then proceeded to watch the "super final fireworks" under the bridge. no we saw nothing except for when the fireworks took off.
when we got home however, one of our neighbors (mexicans) shot fireworks this year :D it was loud it was bright and it scared the five nearest cars when it took off the ground.
Last years was better =]
Thursday, July 1, 2010
imma beat you up
Eric "disabled" my ipod.
I didn't even know that was possible.
basically if you fail at the passcode too many times.
they'll "disable" it.
"Disable": I can not unlock it until i "restore" it.
"restore": link with itunes and completely wiping everything on the ipod
I had shit in there -________-
I use peter's itunes account cause the computer downstairs has no sound so I can't look for new songs even if i wanted to.
apparently peter erased his whole itunes so even if i did restore it....there'd...be..nothing...on..it...
thanks eric, just thanks.
eric is forever forbidden to touch my ipod ever again and I am gonna beat his ass ever time i see him until my ipods fix.
-_______- why would you do that to someone's ipod in the first place that's just retarded...
goal:
job->money->laptop
I didn't even know that was possible.
basically if you fail at the passcode too many times.
they'll "disable" it.
"Disable": I can not unlock it until i "restore" it.
"restore": link with itunes and completely wiping everything on the ipod
I had shit in there -________-
I use peter's itunes account cause the computer downstairs has no sound so I can't look for new songs even if i wanted to.
apparently peter erased his whole itunes so even if i did restore it....there'd...be..nothing...on..it...
thanks eric, just thanks.
eric is forever forbidden to touch my ipod ever again and I am gonna beat his ass ever time i see him until my ipods fix.
-_______- why would you do that to someone's ipod in the first place that's just retarded...
goal:
job->money->laptop
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
The bad thing happened :/
I did say "BRING IT ON!!!"
Two days ago I had my positive phase and foretold that something bad was gonna happen soon
It happened today :/
So I woke up at 11 ish~ sat up read some manga online (started fairytale, its not bad not bad =])
played final fantasy 12 again (just collecting more espers, already beat the game)
I didn't play much though I set myself today on cleaning the house for the avatar event on friday.
so I stopped at 1 and peter and I started cleaning up
idk maybe it was just me but it seemed that peter was a bit laggy, he went back and forth trying to consult with me wheather or not to work this sunday or not. then he'd turn the music hella loud and just loath around for awhile. whatever eventually he got to work
We did good cleaning and It's cleaner now but still looks like shit in my eyes cause if it was my house I'd do things differently -_____-
So we did a good job.
What I was able to do:
Scrubbed the tub/the sink/ the toilet
Washed the dishes/and clothes
made he mirrors in the both toilets all shinny
took out the trash and recycle multiple times
vaccumed the couch
wiped the table
Folded and hung all my clothes (i swear i need to buy myself a clothes bin)
i forgot the rest
anyways mom comes home and makes herself some food.
by then peter, eric and I were in the middle of watching fast and furious
Before my mom sat down she noticed a spider and she freaked out
she told me to kill it
I told her to kill it yourself
she had a napkin in her hand and placed it on the couch where I was
spider? -> the ground
she kept telling me to kill it, AND THEN~ peter started to tell me to kill it
by then I started feeling *what..the..shit*
What I thought was -Why the fuck can't you kill it yourself huh? WHY!? WHY!?
so I told my mom that if i killed it she'd have to throw it away cause I was the one helping her.
she said yes but by then the spider crawed under the couch.
if I was the only one there, I'd just let it go. I mean wtf is a small ass spider gonna do. It's fangs cant even penatrate your freeken skill. the worst that could happen is it crawls into your mouth while you sleep and you accidently eat it. but you're asleep anyways so you wouldn't know would cha
So the dumbass peter kept saying "kill it! kill it!"
Guess what happened next guys!
I BLEW UP!
I got fucken anger. I swung the couch back hella and just smashed the fucken ass spider and crushed it. Then I brought it right to my mom and told her "Here! TAKE IT! NOW GO THROW IT AWAY! GO! THROW IT AWAY!" *all in viet when it happened*
Then i swung the couch back to normal
peter proceeded me with the wtf look and told me something like cool it, stop right now or else I'll beat you up
I just imediately questioning him, "why can't YOU kill it huh? why not? come on you could tell me why? why not huh? ITS CAUSE YOU CAN'T! >:O *I just wanted to rub it all in his fucken face*
you know what he said? "can't you do a favor?"
lol
you know what happened next, I didn't even respond to that.
I do favors, I do alot a favors actually.
even though I said that I was never to let peter borrow money again i did. why? "It was a favor"
movie ticket "it was a favor"
when I drive mom around "that was a favor"
I do endless favors for everyone. if I can do it I usually do. if not then I just had enough.
He dared to question that I couldn't do a favor?
WHAT THE FUCK?!
anyways I needed to cool down.
I took a shower and worked out to release some anger. put energy into something useful ya know.
so I did some chores to cool down and yeah here i am
I predict.. that we'll just avoid each other and eventually they'll just dissapear eventually
I hate his ass. Just hate it...
someone kill him for me, I'll pay you with whatever money i have left which is less than a 100. jk but I hate him no joke. even God knows I hate him.
Two days ago I had my positive phase and foretold that something bad was gonna happen soon
It happened today :/
So I woke up at 11 ish~ sat up read some manga online (started fairytale, its not bad not bad =])
played final fantasy 12 again (just collecting more espers, already beat the game)
I didn't play much though I set myself today on cleaning the house for the avatar event on friday.
so I stopped at 1 and peter and I started cleaning up
idk maybe it was just me but it seemed that peter was a bit laggy, he went back and forth trying to consult with me wheather or not to work this sunday or not. then he'd turn the music hella loud and just loath around for awhile. whatever eventually he got to work
We did good cleaning and It's cleaner now but still looks like shit in my eyes cause if it was my house I'd do things differently -_____-
So we did a good job.
What I was able to do:
Scrubbed the tub/the sink/ the toilet
Washed the dishes/and clothes
made he mirrors in the both toilets all shinny
took out the trash and recycle multiple times
vaccumed the couch
wiped the table
Folded and hung all my clothes (i swear i need to buy myself a clothes bin)
i forgot the rest
anyways mom comes home and makes herself some food.
by then peter, eric and I were in the middle of watching fast and furious
Before my mom sat down she noticed a spider and she freaked out
she told me to kill it
I told her to kill it yourself
she had a napkin in her hand and placed it on the couch where I was
spider? -> the ground
she kept telling me to kill it, AND THEN~ peter started to tell me to kill it
by then I started feeling *what..the..shit*
What I thought was -Why the fuck can't you kill it yourself huh? WHY!? WHY!?
so I told my mom that if i killed it she'd have to throw it away cause I was the one helping her.
she said yes but by then the spider crawed under the couch.
if I was the only one there, I'd just let it go. I mean wtf is a small ass spider gonna do. It's fangs cant even penatrate your freeken skill. the worst that could happen is it crawls into your mouth while you sleep and you accidently eat it. but you're asleep anyways so you wouldn't know would cha
So the dumbass peter kept saying "kill it! kill it!"
Guess what happened next guys!
I BLEW UP!
I got fucken anger. I swung the couch back hella and just smashed the fucken ass spider and crushed it. Then I brought it right to my mom and told her "Here! TAKE IT! NOW GO THROW IT AWAY! GO! THROW IT AWAY!" *all in viet when it happened*
Then i swung the couch back to normal
peter proceeded me with the wtf look and told me something like cool it, stop right now or else I'll beat you up
I just imediately questioning him, "why can't YOU kill it huh? why not? come on you could tell me why? why not huh? ITS CAUSE YOU CAN'T! >:O *I just wanted to rub it all in his fucken face*
you know what he said? "can't you do a favor?"
lol
you know what happened next, I didn't even respond to that.
I do favors, I do alot a favors actually.
even though I said that I was never to let peter borrow money again i did. why? "It was a favor"
movie ticket "it was a favor"
when I drive mom around "that was a favor"
I do endless favors for everyone. if I can do it I usually do. if not then I just had enough.
He dared to question that I couldn't do a favor?
WHAT THE FUCK?!
anyways I needed to cool down.
I took a shower and worked out to release some anger. put energy into something useful ya know.
so I did some chores to cool down and yeah here i am
I predict.. that we'll just avoid each other and eventually they'll just dissapear eventually
I hate his ass. Just hate it...
someone kill him for me, I'll pay you with whatever money i have left which is less than a 100. jk but I hate him no joke. even God knows I hate him.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Churchy
Went to church today. Youth mass actually =]
I like youth mass ^_____^ it's fun and there are alot of people I know
Plus I like the songs and the mass itself
I mean it's not boring like regular viet mass ya know?
As great as it was I still fell asleep haha
I was so tired I just wanted to sleep in mass.
Oh I went shopping with mom at gmall today so maybe that's why I felt so tired
My gosh she shopped forever -________-
I had no phone so I didn't dare just leave her cause her "rarely" checks her time when she shops -___-
So I stuck with her :/
We went to marshals first
I bought some iPod thing for my car but idk if it works :P I'll just return it if it doesn't
Then we went to sketchers just looked around
She spent the most time in American eagle though -_______-
I'd like to say she spent 1:30-2:00 hrs in that one store
There were no chairs and I had to wait. I stayed there and saw people that came in 30 minutes after her purchase there clothing and left before us.
Women and shopping -_______-
See bought me two shirts though so I stayed but it freaken hurt though I had to stand and hold some bags that we bought.
It was tugging on my finger for so long I had to switch back and forth.
Oh! I've been taking the freeway ^______^
I like the freeway alot faster and personally I think it's easier than the inside road =]
Oh! Anyways I was at church and I suddenly had a bunch of possitive thoughts. (something that I do from time to time)
I thought about how lucky I am to have a loving family (not really but good enough for me)
Great and wonderful friends ^_____^ I thought about all of them as they walked down the row
The bad thing about this is whenever I start this phase I know that something bad is about to happen to me
Idk :/ it's just my six sense of things.
So now I wonder what the bad thing that's gonna happen to me is :/ hmmm
BRING IT ON!!!! :D
I like youth mass ^_____^ it's fun and there are alot of people I know
Plus I like the songs and the mass itself
I mean it's not boring like regular viet mass ya know?
As great as it was I still fell asleep haha
I was so tired I just wanted to sleep in mass.
Oh I went shopping with mom at gmall today so maybe that's why I felt so tired
My gosh she shopped forever -________-
I had no phone so I didn't dare just leave her cause her "rarely" checks her time when she shops -___-
So I stuck with her :/
We went to marshals first
I bought some iPod thing for my car but idk if it works :P I'll just return it if it doesn't
Then we went to sketchers just looked around
She spent the most time in American eagle though -_______-
I'd like to say she spent 1:30-2:00 hrs in that one store
There were no chairs and I had to wait. I stayed there and saw people that came in 30 minutes after her purchase there clothing and left before us.
Women and shopping -_______-
See bought me two shirts though so I stayed but it freaken hurt though I had to stand and hold some bags that we bought.
It was tugging on my finger for so long I had to switch back and forth.
Oh! I've been taking the freeway ^______^
I like the freeway alot faster and personally I think it's easier than the inside road =]
Oh! Anyways I was at church and I suddenly had a bunch of possitive thoughts. (something that I do from time to time)
I thought about how lucky I am to have a loving family (not really but good enough for me)
Great and wonderful friends ^_____^ I thought about all of them as they walked down the row
The bad thing about this is whenever I start this phase I know that something bad is about to happen to me
Idk :/ it's just my six sense of things.
So now I wonder what the bad thing that's gonna happen to me is :/ hmmm
BRING IT ON!!!! :D
what to do what to do
so I finished my room.
cleaned it up.
re-organized it.
wiped down the mirrors and vacuumed my carpet.
Should i wash my car? :/
sigh, naw dad will eventually just smoke in it again and make it all dusty again.
Im supposed to refill the gas today and drive mom somewhere again.
apparently I have a psp (3000 series) but games just cost tooo much.
I asked eric if he could mod and he told me that he could~...just that I could only play some games as in only ps1 games on it. -_____-
there's no point in that..
however he did tell me that the 2000 series could play anything and everything so I started to want a 2000 series.
Im almost broke right now so I've been trying not to spend money.
anyways, I go to game stop and asked them how much they were selling their 2000 series psp. They told me $119? its that or it was $109. something like that.
then I asked him how much they would pay for my psp. he replied, $80 but we do have a promotion going on so we'll throw in an extra $25 making it $105. I seriously wouldn't mind trading that and paying for the difference if I could get any game I want for free.
The problem with this plan though is, my aunt gave me that psp >____< I really don't wanna sell it but then again what good is it to me if i can't play it. T_______T i mean isn't the point of the present is wishing that we could use it?
I've kept it very clean, never dropped it. It's practically new! I mean I've only played 1 game on it. Sigh.
I asked peter what he thought about it and he said that it was a present but it was my choice... -________-
well, right now if i just kept it...most likely its just gonna continue sitting inside my drawer. i don't even think ill use it...but if I traded it...I see no reason to not play with it? -_____-
im kinda leaning towards selling it. I doubt my aunt would notice the difference anyway but its still a present...blaahahhhh
cleaned it up.
re-organized it.
wiped down the mirrors and vacuumed my carpet.
Should i wash my car? :/
sigh, naw dad will eventually just smoke in it again and make it all dusty again.
Im supposed to refill the gas today and drive mom somewhere again.
apparently I have a psp (3000 series) but games just cost tooo much.
I asked eric if he could mod and he told me that he could~...just that I could only play some games as in only ps1 games on it. -_____-
there's no point in that..
however he did tell me that the 2000 series could play anything and everything so I started to want a 2000 series.
Im almost broke right now so I've been trying not to spend money.
anyways, I go to game stop and asked them how much they were selling their 2000 series psp. They told me $119? its that or it was $109. something like that.
then I asked him how much they would pay for my psp. he replied, $80 but we do have a promotion going on so we'll throw in an extra $25 making it $105. I seriously wouldn't mind trading that and paying for the difference if I could get any game I want for free.
The problem with this plan though is, my aunt gave me that psp >____< I really don't wanna sell it but then again what good is it to me if i can't play it. T_______T i mean isn't the point of the present is wishing that we could use it?
I've kept it very clean, never dropped it. It's practically new! I mean I've only played 1 game on it. Sigh.
I asked peter what he thought about it and he said that it was a present but it was my choice... -________-
well, right now if i just kept it...most likely its just gonna continue sitting inside my drawer. i don't even think ill use it...but if I traded it...I see no reason to not play with it? -_____-
im kinda leaning towards selling it. I doubt my aunt would notice the difference anyway but its still a present...blaahahhhh
Friday, June 25, 2010
two in one day
two blogs? r3ally? that's so strange. maybe im just in the mood =] whatever
so haven't you guys ever felt like you wanted to be more than yourself.
be better? or just to be a different person than you are now?
I guess what Im trying to say is...Im kinda bored with the person i am O____O
I wanna be different, I wanna change, I wanna stand out ya know? hahaha
I always lived my life within my boundaries :/ idk if that makes sense.
I always played save.
Idk what Im saying just that I just wanna live my life the way i want to.
i mean isn't that me pursuing my happiness? doesn't that mean anything else said by anyone else is just an opinion and could anytime be disregarded as irrelevant.
I just know that when i reflect on my life this isn't how i wanna live my life.
I was watching...whats that movie called...She's out of my league.
moral of the story. are you good enough for yourself.
I found that to be a difficult question to answer and frankly I don't think im good enough for myself never the less I am gonna work on this and change myself.
I wanna be able to look at myself a just feel extremely happy of who i am. =]
wish me luck buys
so haven't you guys ever felt like you wanted to be more than yourself.
be better? or just to be a different person than you are now?
I guess what Im trying to say is...Im kinda bored with the person i am O____O
I wanna be different, I wanna change, I wanna stand out ya know? hahaha
I always lived my life within my boundaries :/ idk if that makes sense.
I always played save.
Idk what Im saying just that I just wanna live my life the way i want to.
i mean isn't that me pursuing my happiness? doesn't that mean anything else said by anyone else is just an opinion and could anytime be disregarded as irrelevant.
I just know that when i reflect on my life this isn't how i wanna live my life.
I was watching...whats that movie called...She's out of my league.
moral of the story. are you good enough for yourself.
I found that to be a difficult question to answer and frankly I don't think im good enough for myself never the less I am gonna work on this and change myself.
I wanna be able to look at myself a just feel extremely happy of who i am. =]
wish me luck buys
Fall 2010
Legend
Name of class/days/units
Times of the day/building/intructor
________________________________________________________
Current Schedule Units: 14 (max) for now
KIN 48A-Beginning latin Dance: MW: (units: 1)
8:30am-9:20am. Spartan Complex East 089. Instructor Joelle Maletis
KIN 46A-Beginning Social Dance: MW (units: 1)
10:30am-11:20am Spartan Complex East 089. Instructor Joelle Maletis
TA 10-01 Theatre Aprreciation MW (units:3) C1
12:00pm-1:15pm Hugh Gillis Hall 103. Instructor Kratochivil
ENGL 1A: MW (units: 3) A2
1:30pm-2:45pm Sweeney Hall 413. Joan McMillan
PHIL 57-05 Logic and critical Reasoning MW (units: 3) A3
3:00pm-4:15pm Sweeney Hall 348. Instructor Andrew Leung
AAS 33A: TuTh (units: 3) D2,3; F 1,2,3
1:30pm-2:45pm. Engineering Building 343. Instructor Alexander Yamato,
Estella Habal
_________________________________________________________
WAITLIST
(mainly if I perfer the ones below but they were full if I make it pass the waitlist then i'll drop the other one above)
AAS (3 units) MW D2,3; F 1,2,3 WAITLIST #15
a. 9:00AM - 10:15AM. Engineering Building 343. Instructors: Hien Do,
Steven Doi
^will's is in this class and it was the best one. -______- I chose this one first to get on the waitlist and I got like waitlisted as 10 i think then when I added the other one (cause it was open) i think i got dropped or something. I noticed it was gone so I re-added it. now im 15 -_____- shit... well the class is has 80 students...I hope 15 of them changes their mind.
PHIL 57-05 Logic and critical Reasoning TuTh (units: 3) A3
12:00pm-1:15pm Boccardo Business Center 203. Instructor Janet Stemwedel
^ I will only add this if I get into Tai chi because if you haven't noticed Tai chi is half way into my current PHIL class so if I get into Tai Chi and this class is open I'll drop the other one.
Tai Chi (non-combative): MW (units: 1) WAITLIST #5
3:30pm-4:20pm at Spartan Complex Central 004A Instructor: chi Hsiu Weng
^ TAICHIIIIIII!!!!~ TTOTT I want this class so badly~...(hence waterbending :D)
Sigh~ I tried to have it all on just MW, I still might have a chance but for now I have 4 days a week -_______-
Name of class/days/units
Times of the day/building/intructor
________________________________________________________
Current Schedule Units: 14 (max) for now
KIN 48A-Beginning latin Dance: MW: (units: 1)
8:30am-9:20am. Spartan Complex East 089. Instructor Joelle Maletis
KIN 46A-Beginning Social Dance: MW (units: 1)
10:30am-11:20am Spartan Complex East 089. Instructor Joelle Maletis
TA 10-01 Theatre Aprreciation MW (units:3) C1
12:00pm-1:15pm Hugh Gillis Hall 103. Instructor Kratochivil
ENGL 1A: MW (units: 3) A2
1:30pm-2:45pm Sweeney Hall 413. Joan McMillan
PHIL 57-05 Logic and critical Reasoning MW (units: 3) A3
3:00pm-4:15pm Sweeney Hall 348. Instructor Andrew Leung
AAS 33A: TuTh (units: 3) D2,3; F 1,2,3
1:30pm-2:45pm. Engineering Building 343. Instructor Alexander Yamato,
Estella Habal
_________________________________________________________
WAITLIST
(mainly if I perfer the ones below but they were full if I make it pass the waitlist then i'll drop the other one above)
AAS (3 units) MW D2,3; F 1,2,3 WAITLIST #15
a. 9:00AM - 10:15AM. Engineering Building 343. Instructors: Hien Do,
Steven Doi
^will's is in this class and it was the best one. -______- I chose this one first to get on the waitlist and I got like waitlisted as 10 i think then when I added the other one (cause it was open) i think i got dropped or something. I noticed it was gone so I re-added it. now im 15 -_____- shit... well the class is has 80 students...I hope 15 of them changes their mind.
PHIL 57-05 Logic and critical Reasoning TuTh (units: 3) A3
12:00pm-1:15pm Boccardo Business Center 203. Instructor Janet Stemwedel
^ I will only add this if I get into Tai chi because if you haven't noticed Tai chi is half way into my current PHIL class so if I get into Tai Chi and this class is open I'll drop the other one.
Tai Chi (non-combative): MW (units: 1) WAITLIST #5
3:30pm-4:20pm at Spartan Complex Central 004A Instructor: chi Hsiu Weng
^ TAICHIIIIIII!!!!~ TTOTT I want this class so badly~...(hence waterbending :D)
Sigh~ I tried to have it all on just MW, I still might have a chance but for now I have 4 days a week -_______-
Thursday, June 24, 2010
o....__.....o
does that make me look like I have a mustache? :D
idk why i did that -____- im completely bored outta my mind
I think if you stay home too long there are symptoms
let me explain:
1. you'll lose track of time and when i say time i mean "today is monday? O___O?"
2. you'll eat everything in your house.
3. you'll get lazy and not wanna follow through with your plan.
4. you'll stay up super late constantly and wake up around 12 or 1.
5. you'll have mood swings more often.
6. Tv becomes your best friend.
7. It's usually you at home by yourself.
8. you'll start to act...actually i'm quite sane.
9. everything you interact with will eventually bore you.
10. I just wanted to have a one through ten :P
Well tomorrow is the day i choose my classes. I remember it was tomorrow not sure what the time is and not sure how i check again. hmmm. :/
i hope it goes smoothly cause its a pain rescheduling -____-
Oh! target called me the other day. I was playing games when i heard a phone call. it then went to speaker and the first thing I heard was "hi~ This is Target and..." my mind lit up and I ran to it but i didn't wanna pick up cause I might not remember what they say so I just waited till she finished. i haven't called back but i really should. I hope I get hired -______- i need a job.
idk why i did that -____- im completely bored outta my mind
I think if you stay home too long there are symptoms
let me explain:
1. you'll lose track of time and when i say time i mean "today is monday? O___O?"
2. you'll eat everything in your house.
3. you'll get lazy and not wanna follow through with your plan.
4. you'll stay up super late constantly and wake up around 12 or 1.
5. you'll have mood swings more often.
6. Tv becomes your best friend.
7. It's usually you at home by yourself.
8. you'll start to act...actually i'm quite sane.
9. everything you interact with will eventually bore you.
10. I just wanted to have a one through ten :P
Well tomorrow is the day i choose my classes. I remember it was tomorrow not sure what the time is and not sure how i check again. hmmm. :/
i hope it goes smoothly cause its a pain rescheduling -____-
Oh! target called me the other day. I was playing games when i heard a phone call. it then went to speaker and the first thing I heard was "hi~ This is Target and..." my mind lit up and I ran to it but i didn't wanna pick up cause I might not remember what they say so I just waited till she finished. i haven't called back but i really should. I hope I get hired -______- i need a job.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Hmmm
I cut my hair.
Cleaned my room.
Washed and hung my clothes.
Watched part of a movie.
Planned a movie with a few people tomorrow.
Worked out.
Washed the dishes.
My mom snores....very...very loud...kinda reminds me of cang haha
Oh fuck I wanna watch avatar the last airbender movie July 2nd!!!!!!!!
Cleaned my room.
Washed and hung my clothes.
Watched part of a movie.
Planned a movie with a few people tomorrow.
Worked out.
Washed the dishes.
My mom snores....very...very loud...kinda reminds me of cang haha
Oh fuck I wanna watch avatar the last airbender movie July 2nd!!!!!!!!
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Blaaaah
-_______-
its ridiculously boring at my house.
my rooms a mess so i i started cleaning it yesterday.
I've been sleeping on the couch for one..two..five days?
ever since the beach I haven't been working out at all. its all flaaaaabs again T_____T
Another thing! my face started pealing cause of sunburn so now i have two shades of skin on my face.
Summer school. sooooooo bottom line for me is no summer school.
yes, that means I'm gonna take english 1A sjsu. why? cause they don't except transfers for that class. So i had to take the placement test. my grade was "in between" so basically remediation part 2. but why the heck I take it then. even if i did take it summer would be over and I still have english 1A -_____- this sucks..
besides that my money is low. it hass never been this low :(
my plan: JOB = MONEY.
gotta get a job.
gotta tell my dad about no summer school.
hawaii? :D *surrrrrrffinnnnngggggg* (maybe)
laptop? -______- its been too long.
hmm i think thats it :/
its ridiculously boring at my house.
my rooms a mess so i i started cleaning it yesterday.
I've been sleeping on the couch for one..two..five days?
ever since the beach I haven't been working out at all. its all flaaaaabs again T_____T
Another thing! my face started pealing cause of sunburn so now i have two shades of skin on my face.
Summer school. sooooooo bottom line for me is no summer school.
yes, that means I'm gonna take english 1A sjsu. why? cause they don't except transfers for that class. So i had to take the placement test. my grade was "in between" so basically remediation part 2. but why the heck I take it then. even if i did take it summer would be over and I still have english 1A -_____- this sucks..
besides that my money is low. it hass never been this low :(
my plan: JOB = MONEY.
gotta get a job.
gotta tell my dad about no summer school.
hawaii? :D *surrrrrrffinnnnngggggg* (maybe)
laptop? -______- its been too long.
hmm i think thats it :/
Thursday, June 10, 2010
so its finally over is it
We finally did it huh. It just seemed that it was gonna happen sooner or later at this point. Maybe that's why I'm not in shock, surprised or crying. Instead, I'm smiling. How strange it is for me to smile as we broke apart. I'm not smiling because it's what I wanted, heavens no. I wanted us to stay together but that...that was just wishful thinking. I'm don't regret any of it, maybe that's why it doesn't hurt because I realize the situation beforehand. I'm not sure if it just girls but but all the guys I know commit to what they do. I don't understand why girls feel the need to be doubtful. Doubt never sunk into my mind until you told me that you had your own doubts. Maybe I got paranoid idk. Time to confess my sins then. I did lie. I lied sometimes when you asked if I was alright. I knew you were busy adding more trouble wouldn't help and I uaually find myself again anyways so I just told you I was alright. What else did I lie about. I lied when I said I felt the same way as I did she we first fell for each other. I knew it was t true but I refused to believe it so I said I still did. Truth is I didn't feel the same anymore. The absence that you left took a big affct on how I felt. I think I wouldve been fine if we kept staying in touch but that changed somewhere. How unfortunate. Like you said. There isn't a doubt that I do care for you and love you as well but we aren't "in love" anymore. I think the thing I missed the most was spending time with you. I could of spent days with you if I could but things got problematic. We stopped seeing each other. Me having to commute made you feel like you were burdening me. Your mom, school, the spc thing, blackie. Yeah I missed that the most. Spending time. I hope you don't see this as your fault. I mean I know you are probably the reason why this ended but I still don't want you to see this as your fault. For me I'm trying to see the better side of this. I know this isn't the end of the world. You don't have to be troubled anymore. I get to be single? (not so sure I'm happy about that) I get to find myself now without feeling bad for leaving you. Who knows maybe we might have another chance in the future. I know one thing imma do. I know for sure imma stay away from relationships though. I need to explore a whole lot more. Somewhat like you =] shit I know I wanna change some stuff about myself. I still have to find out alot of stuff so it's not all bad. Sure I'm sad, but only because it ended so soon. We barely got to talk though. We basically died out haha. Idk maybe I'm trying to laugh it off. Maybe I had my heart crushed so many times that this became normal. What evvvvs it's over now and it's tv past so imma just let it pass =] step towards the future?
Sunday, June 6, 2010
hmm o___o
hey i made a tumblr...
I found it really funny how easy it was to creat one.
anyways here yah go if you wanna follow me
http://ukn03itsj03.tumblr.com/
Peace~
I found it really funny how easy it was to creat one.
anyways here yah go if you wanna follow me
http://ukn03itsj03.tumblr.com/
Peace~
June 6
Hey...sup people. It's late, actually it's 1:05 am so yeah really late.
I just wanted to pay my respects to Kristine's dog, blackie. 5 years and 8 months is a long period.
When I think of blackie these are my first thoughts:
Energetic
Black
Running
Hyper
Kristine's cherished animal
Cute personality
And truely lovable.
I heard he went missing the day before and I really thought he was gonna come back...like he always does.
It saddened me when I found out this morning that he had just passed away yesterday.
I was like WTF?! I couldn't believe what I heard. I didn't know what Kristine was going through only that it must of felt like alot of pain.
My last memory of him is something I'll always remember
Last week was the last time I saw him and
I'm glad I decided to play with him
He was doin the usual running around the backyard. This time he had a yellow and red ball in his mouth.
I messed with him, grabbed his ball and "tried" to play catch. Whenever he got the ball though, he'd just run away with it in his mouth =] although it wasn't what I wanted it was still really cute. I also scratched his body that day too.
*secret* I remember that day she told me that she had bathed him with shampoo and he smelled really good.
I didn't wanna look like an idiot and start smelling the dog so I waited till she left before I sniffed him =] he did smell good and I openly said that too.
I also remembered that I had to wash my hand after to "played" catch cause the ball was filled with his drool.
Imma miss that really cool midnight black blackie
He had the cutest face I swear.
I loved that dog.
Saddest part I don't even know how he died...I mean it's not something I can just ask. I'll just wait it out I guess.
He was alot of things: he was a dog, he was family, and he was a friend.
A whole lotta people are gonna miss you man...I know im gonna miss ya..
I mean F#€@! That dog was the best...
Goodnight blackie... we love you.
I just wanted to pay my respects to Kristine's dog, blackie. 5 years and 8 months is a long period.
When I think of blackie these are my first thoughts:
Energetic
Black
Running
Hyper
Kristine's cherished animal
Cute personality
And truely lovable.
I heard he went missing the day before and I really thought he was gonna come back...like he always does.
It saddened me when I found out this morning that he had just passed away yesterday.
I was like WTF?! I couldn't believe what I heard. I didn't know what Kristine was going through only that it must of felt like alot of pain.
My last memory of him is something I'll always remember
Last week was the last time I saw him and
I'm glad I decided to play with him
He was doin the usual running around the backyard. This time he had a yellow and red ball in his mouth.
I messed with him, grabbed his ball and "tried" to play catch. Whenever he got the ball though, he'd just run away with it in his mouth =] although it wasn't what I wanted it was still really cute. I also scratched his body that day too.
*secret* I remember that day she told me that she had bathed him with shampoo and he smelled really good.
I didn't wanna look like an idiot and start smelling the dog so I waited till she left before I sniffed him =] he did smell good and I openly said that too.
I also remembered that I had to wash my hand after to "played" catch cause the ball was filled with his drool.
Imma miss that really cool midnight black blackie
He had the cutest face I swear.
I loved that dog.
Saddest part I don't even know how he died...I mean it's not something I can just ask. I'll just wait it out I guess.
He was alot of things: he was a dog, he was family, and he was a friend.
A whole lotta people are gonna miss you man...I know im gonna miss ya..
I mean F#€@! That dog was the best...
Goodnight blackie... we love you.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Fanime
its 12:11 uploading pic from fanime.
the event was fun. i wasted hella money...then again its not really wasting is it if i think it was beneficial huh :D
so what happened?
4 day event fri-mon
we stayed for fri-sun
peter, me, cang, eric, van and paul went to fanime and came back to the fairmont hotel to sleep. We met up with marwin, alex, michelle, sophia, will and kenny. that and we saw people that we knew one time or another in our lives there.
things I bought?
38 avatar the last airbender pins ($30-40 total)
its alot but if you seen the artwork, its niceeee *basically a dollar for every pin*
3 gundam models ($93 total)
not into models but these looked really nice and gundams are expensive, they're usually $50 and up for just one so I say three for that price was alright. plus I got to open the box to inspect the quality so that was a plus. It looks really nice though.
4 posters ($10 total)
I got a ken poster (streetfighter) poster for free cause fanime was closing, i paid 8 for a avatar poster and 2 for 2 bleach posters =]
1 necklace ($6 total)
I bought some really nice flower glass necklace for my mom.
2 avatar card thingy ($5)
its really funny =] it asks like a question and at the bottom are the avatar characters in a row with their distinctive responses :P you'll get it if you see it.
I think that was it o____o I was gonna buy a really really like REALLY NICEE avatar poster but I didn't think it was worth the money -____- so no. that and a bleach sword but I decided not to get that either.
Things I wanted to buy
I wanted to get something for my dad so i walked around. I quickly notice how nothing there is his sorta thing -_________-
kristine? I tried looking for something that would suit you and be useful at the same time. I couldn't find anything T________T I saw this really nice hair clip thing on this girl. i asked her where she got it from and she told me in the dealer's hall. dealer's hall just closed like 5 minutes ago. sadness. T___T
free stuff?
weelllllll the first one was the picture of RYU.
how'd I notice? a swarm of people storming to one of the artist's dest and people started picking up hella posters. yep yep. got there in time for one ^____^
the second one was a bookmark. she made us dance for like 10 seconds then let us grab one from her hand. I got some cat thing. its not bad, its kinda cute. idk if you want it kristine but its better with you than with me cause i dont even use book markers :/
There was also a Rave. I went to check it out with paul it was alright. we just stood there against the wall cause i was too tired to dance. the dj was good though and I felt like dancing but i ended up not goin cause we went home early.
there was also a concert. hella loud and I wasn't a fan but yeah. it was nice i guess o.o stayed for like 5 mins and left.
I missed the black and white ball :/ i wanted to see that one too.
fanime was fun. costly but it was really fun. I'd go again next year =]
the event was fun. i wasted hella money...then again its not really wasting is it if i think it was beneficial huh :D
so what happened?
4 day event fri-mon
we stayed for fri-sun
peter, me, cang, eric, van and paul went to fanime and came back to the fairmont hotel to sleep. We met up with marwin, alex, michelle, sophia, will and kenny. that and we saw people that we knew one time or another in our lives there.
things I bought?
38 avatar the last airbender pins ($30-40 total)
its alot but if you seen the artwork, its niceeee *basically a dollar for every pin*
3 gundam models ($93 total)
not into models but these looked really nice and gundams are expensive, they're usually $50 and up for just one so I say three for that price was alright. plus I got to open the box to inspect the quality so that was a plus. It looks really nice though.
4 posters ($10 total)
I got a ken poster (streetfighter) poster for free cause fanime was closing, i paid 8 for a avatar poster and 2 for 2 bleach posters =]
1 necklace ($6 total)
I bought some really nice flower glass necklace for my mom.
2 avatar card thingy ($5)
its really funny =] it asks like a question and at the bottom are the avatar characters in a row with their distinctive responses :P you'll get it if you see it.
I think that was it o____o I was gonna buy a really really like REALLY NICEE avatar poster but I didn't think it was worth the money -____- so no. that and a bleach sword but I decided not to get that either.
Things I wanted to buy
I wanted to get something for my dad so i walked around. I quickly notice how nothing there is his sorta thing -_________-
kristine? I tried looking for something that would suit you and be useful at the same time. I couldn't find anything T________T I saw this really nice hair clip thing on this girl. i asked her where she got it from and she told me in the dealer's hall. dealer's hall just closed like 5 minutes ago. sadness. T___T
free stuff?
weelllllll the first one was the picture of RYU.
how'd I notice? a swarm of people storming to one of the artist's dest and people started picking up hella posters. yep yep. got there in time for one ^____^
the second one was a bookmark. she made us dance for like 10 seconds then let us grab one from her hand. I got some cat thing. its not bad, its kinda cute. idk if you want it kristine but its better with you than with me cause i dont even use book markers :/
There was also a Rave. I went to check it out with paul it was alright. we just stood there against the wall cause i was too tired to dance. the dj was good though and I felt like dancing but i ended up not goin cause we went home early.
there was also a concert. hella loud and I wasn't a fan but yeah. it was nice i guess o.o stayed for like 5 mins and left.
I missed the black and white ball :/ i wanted to see that one too.
fanime was fun. costly but it was really fun. I'd go again next year =]
Monday, May 24, 2010
Childhood
Hmm...I thought about my childhood in church today.
The thought that came to me was when I was a little boy going grocery shopping with my mom.
I remember that we had our mini games or signs we did with each other.
For example, my mom and I used to wink with one eye and scrunch our faces a little then switch to the other side.
We would do it really fast and see who'd mess up or loses.
To a certain age we stopped doing that...I kinda miss it now.
I'll probably pass it to my children in the future =] if I have any that is.
But yeah~ thought about my mom today.
Night~
The thought that came to me was when I was a little boy going grocery shopping with my mom.
I remember that we had our mini games or signs we did with each other.
For example, my mom and I used to wink with one eye and scrunch our faces a little then switch to the other side.
We would do it really fast and see who'd mess up or loses.
To a certain age we stopped doing that...I kinda miss it now.
I'll probably pass it to my children in the future =] if I have any that is.
But yeah~ thought about my mom today.
Night~
Friday, May 21, 2010
OMG!
SO I just checked my email right, well...I was supposed to check it out yesterday but I was at kristine and wils house. I completely forgot that my grade for the english final came in yesterday (May 20th)
woke up, came downstairs, turn on computer, was checking email when I saw my teacher's name
Me: oh!...-did i pass?- *nervous*
scroll, scroll, scroll
checked the oldest emails
eventually I clicked on my teachers email
what did I find?
this
"Congratulations, you passed the final exam.
Sharmin"
Me: O_______O whaaaa....really?
response to teacher's email: "what?! REALLY?! IS THIS A PRANK MRS. KHAN?!
-Joseph Nguyen"
I AM SO FREAKEN HAPPPY RIGHT NOWWWWWWW!!!!!
ENGLISH 1AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
woke up, came downstairs, turn on computer, was checking email when I saw my teacher's name
Me: oh!...-did i pass?- *nervous*
scroll, scroll, scroll
checked the oldest emails
eventually I clicked on my teachers email
what did I find?
this
"Congratulations, you passed the final exam.
Sharmin"
Me: O_______O whaaaa....really?
response to teacher's email: "what?! REALLY?! IS THIS A PRANK MRS. KHAN?!
-Joseph Nguyen"
I AM SO FREAKEN HAPPPY RIGHT NOWWWWWWW!!!!!
ENGLISH 1AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Sunday, May 16, 2010
2010 May 16
I admit, I've been slacking off, not been much help, or even boring at times,
Know that I'm sorry, I don't mean to be boring or helpless,
The only thing I can think of to telling you after an entire year is..
I love you.
Take those words very seriously, its not just there for show
I mean what I say and that goes for everybody I talk to.
Im truthful, I won't lie.
I may be clumsy, weird,
I often times don't even make any sense but at least I'm honest right?
So when I tell you that I love you, I mean it,
I love the person you've become,
I know I can be jerk -____- I made you cry, sad, mad, and stressed,
Sometimes I just do things cause I want your attention,
You know how happy you make me whenever we interact,
There so much I wanna say but the words won't come,
If you looked into my eyes you'd see that,
I love being with you.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Darn it
Sigh, I won't be able to sleep unless I get this out of me.
She gonna go to stockton, and I thought milpitas was far.
Questions that keep recurring in my mind...
Will she move on without me?
Will she even visit me?
Are we gonna resort to webcam?
Am I gonna be okay?
I know that she's been told what to do her whole life and I know that what she wants more than anything is her own freedom from anyone's grasp. I have to agree that she deserve to do whatever she wants. She's been through he'll ever since I've known her.
A part of me wants her to do things for herself but then again I want to be there, with her yah know? Day by day. She told me I was selfish today. I don't hear that alot. Actually I think she's the only one that's ever called me that. I questioned myself if I was really selfish today. From her point of view I saw what she meant. I wanted her close by and that was selfish of me. There are only a few things I really want in this world and this was one of them. Everything else is just to pass the time or extras, this? This is important. If Stockton is where you wanna go then by all means go. I'm gonna miss you so much though you don't even know half of it.
I hope that we'll still be together someway somehow. I did think about saving this relationship for the future but it was kinda hard to bear thinking that I won't be spending them without you. I'm hoping for the impossible but that's all I have. The actual time it takes me to go to stockton is apparently 1:40 min. 87. something miles -_______- I just had to check how far it was. I'm glad you got it all planned out. I'm not sure if I'll be able to sleep or not.
She gonna go to stockton, and I thought milpitas was far.
Questions that keep recurring in my mind...
Will she move on without me?
Will she even visit me?
Are we gonna resort to webcam?
Am I gonna be okay?
I know that she's been told what to do her whole life and I know that what she wants more than anything is her own freedom from anyone's grasp. I have to agree that she deserve to do whatever she wants. She's been through he'll ever since I've known her.
A part of me wants her to do things for herself but then again I want to be there, with her yah know? Day by day. She told me I was selfish today. I don't hear that alot. Actually I think she's the only one that's ever called me that. I questioned myself if I was really selfish today. From her point of view I saw what she meant. I wanted her close by and that was selfish of me. There are only a few things I really want in this world and this was one of them. Everything else is just to pass the time or extras, this? This is important. If Stockton is where you wanna go then by all means go. I'm gonna miss you so much though you don't even know half of it.
I hope that we'll still be together someway somehow. I did think about saving this relationship for the future but it was kinda hard to bear thinking that I won't be spending them without you. I'm hoping for the impossible but that's all I have. The actual time it takes me to go to stockton is apparently 1:40 min. 87. something miles -_______- I just had to check how far it was. I'm glad you got it all planned out. I'm not sure if I'll be able to sleep or not.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
I had a double dream
this was last week but whatever,
I had a dream within a dream this morning. It was soo weird.
So in the beginning I remember there was school the following days. Peter invited me to go to vietnam (no clue) for some business. We were at the airport waiting in line to use there computer. I clanced ahead and notice the current user was on aim but more importantly who was on the aim. I saw kristine's name listed and I thought to myself, hey we know the same person. Then somehow we ended up in a room. people in the room: peter, kristine and I. Apparently this was her room but it didn't look anything like her actual room. I mean there was a bunk bed, a toilet, a sink and some drawer in a slightly dimmed room. We messed around for hours doin weird stuff. She left to get something so we waited. There were strange noises and we thought it was rats but it wasn't. We couldn't find anything, then ALL OF A SUDDEN a dude appeared from one of the other rooms (I cant remember who it was) it seemed that he was the one causing the noises though.
Anyways he left. I had removed the toilet cover and shoved it back into the toilet so that nothing could fall in it. (awkward~~~) Apparently I was cleaning something up with a rag and after I finished I tossed it back where I got it from and it sadly landed in the toilet. I freaked out and ran to get it out.
Meanwhile peter was about to take #2 in the sink (SUPER AWKWARD) I got the rag out it wasn't dirty and no peter didn't take a shit in the sink.
so kristine came back and we all decided to sleep. As we were about to pass out there was a phone call. It was kristine's friend and as they were talking she walked into the room. I was like wth? how'd that happen?! somehow her name was nancy O-O I..never..met her in my entire life..yet I know her name?..weird~ she asked if she could stay over for a bit. Then she asked peter and I some questions like how old we were and stuff. then she just left.
we all went back to sleep and had a dream that we were all in fruit costumes with new hair cuts with dyed hair. we just messed around with the costumes.
in the morning, I think kristine was dreaming about nancy hitting on us and started mumbling in her sleep. I woke her up to tell her it was just a dream and we k!$$ed?
I then told them that I had a crazy dream as I looked around the room. I noticed that there were pictures of fruits on her blanket identical to my dream costumes and then on the side of her bed had colorfuls stripes which I recalled was the color of our hair in my dream.
Then bam! im infront of a camera about to take one of those class photos? we were all in formal clothing for some reason. I was the only one in a suit without socks?
...then I believe I woke up and jotted it all down before I forgot.
yeah..my first double dream. dream within a dream are crazy @___@ I think eric, my classmate influenced this dream because he told me he had a dream within a dream within a dream. I now know how he felt.
I had a dream within a dream this morning. It was soo weird.
So in the beginning I remember there was school the following days. Peter invited me to go to vietnam (no clue) for some business. We were at the airport waiting in line to use there computer. I clanced ahead and notice the current user was on aim but more importantly who was on the aim. I saw kristine's name listed and I thought to myself, hey we know the same person. Then somehow we ended up in a room. people in the room: peter, kristine and I. Apparently this was her room but it didn't look anything like her actual room. I mean there was a bunk bed, a toilet, a sink and some drawer in a slightly dimmed room. We messed around for hours doin weird stuff. She left to get something so we waited. There were strange noises and we thought it was rats but it wasn't. We couldn't find anything, then ALL OF A SUDDEN a dude appeared from one of the other rooms (I cant remember who it was) it seemed that he was the one causing the noises though.
Anyways he left. I had removed the toilet cover and shoved it back into the toilet so that nothing could fall in it. (awkward~~~) Apparently I was cleaning something up with a rag and after I finished I tossed it back where I got it from and it sadly landed in the toilet. I freaked out and ran to get it out.
Meanwhile peter was about to take #2 in the sink (SUPER AWKWARD) I got the rag out it wasn't dirty and no peter didn't take a shit in the sink.
so kristine came back and we all decided to sleep. As we were about to pass out there was a phone call. It was kristine's friend and as they were talking she walked into the room. I was like wth? how'd that happen?! somehow her name was nancy O-O I..never..met her in my entire life..yet I know her name?..weird~ she asked if she could stay over for a bit. Then she asked peter and I some questions like how old we were and stuff. then she just left.
we all went back to sleep and had a dream that we were all in fruit costumes with new hair cuts with dyed hair. we just messed around with the costumes.
in the morning, I think kristine was dreaming about nancy hitting on us and started mumbling in her sleep. I woke her up to tell her it was just a dream and we k!$$ed?
I then told them that I had a crazy dream as I looked around the room. I noticed that there were pictures of fruits on her blanket identical to my dream costumes and then on the side of her bed had colorfuls stripes which I recalled was the color of our hair in my dream.
Then bam! im infront of a camera about to take one of those class photos? we were all in formal clothing for some reason. I was the only one in a suit without socks?
...then I believe I woke up and jotted it all down before I forgot.
yeah..my first double dream. dream within a dream are crazy @___@ I think eric, my classmate influenced this dream because he told me he had a dream within a dream within a dream. I now know how he felt.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
its been awhile
This was playing during youth mass a like 30 minutes ago. Its one of my favorite religious songs. today I thought about her again, my sister. Not to be gloomy but it just what i thought about during church. She'd be three this year. I thought about how my life would be different if she was here. She'd be running around our house, messing around, trying to touch everything. sigh. I still blame myself for what happened its lame but its something I can't help but see it any other way than my fault. If I had helped out more, told my mom to go rest and let us handle it..if I payed more attention I might have been able to prevent it from happening. This is something that'll stay with me forever.
after the song, I had the thought of hugging my mom and just apologize for screwing up but I couldn't say it at all. I did however feel as though I was gonna cry. I felt my throat tighten and my eyes goin blurry. I didn't cry though cause like my parents would be like wth. yeah... RIP
Your older brother,
Joe
05/09/10
first time driving in the freeway on a rainy day and I HELLA OWNED IT. yeah.
new stuff:
I got me new shades (finally) TT___TT favorite pair broke awhile ago *the pain*
Got me basket ball short! *shock shock* first pair ever. I know im lame but my goshhhhh they were hella softttttt.
got a jacket if it every gets cold.
Planning:
making my avatar hat and shoes by july 2nd
Job *please someoneee hirrrreeeee meeeeee alreaaady*
school guys with my workout buddy, eric tran *good guy good guy, funny guy* ^____^
rawr next week is my english final eh he he...
i wanna go swimminggggggg
summer school prep.
insurance is still linked to job -_____-
new stuff:
I got me new shades (finally) TT___TT favorite pair broke awhile ago *the pain*
Got me basket ball short! *shock shock* first pair ever. I know im lame but my goshhhhh they were hella softttttt.
got a jacket if it every gets cold.
Planning:
making my avatar hat and shoes by july 2nd
Job *please someoneee hirrrreeeee meeeeee alreaaady*
school guys with my workout buddy, eric tran *good guy good guy, funny guy* ^____^
rawr next week is my english final eh he he...
i wanna go swimminggggggg
summer school prep.
insurance is still linked to job -_____-
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Dreams R so random that they become cool
so yesterday...to this morning? I had a dream and I usually don't have dreams anymore; its kind of sad when I think about it now. Dream are the most random thoughts when a person sleeps and in my case I have dreams from action to mystery.
yesterday I had a mystery dream ha ha. I think i watched too many Criminal Minds hahaha. (CM is the shittttt!) so I woke up this morning and realized that I had just woken from a dream. the first thing I did was try to remember as much as I possibly can; I even typed it all out on to my ipod just so it would be fresh.
So this is the story...
It was dark, late at night and I was with a group of like ten friends. I don't recall who was there except that they were with me. We started from within a mediocre room. My small brown dog and my mom was there. A few of us had flashlights and we just huddled around each other until we couldn't anymore. They all left to search for food within the house and look for an exit.
My dog and my mom stayed back. Apparently my dog found something and dragged it out one of the doors and into the darkness. (my dog never reappeared in my dream) my mom on the other hand was there to answer any questions i had. (she was like one of those information people in a game ha ha) Anyways she told me that there was something wrong with this house and that there was a neighbor next to this house. By then my friends returned but they didn't have food instead they were in shock and panicking as one of them said "there's something seriously wrong with this house *gasp for air* we found corpses"
The story to me then became a mystery that must be solved. so we went outside the house. I noticed that the house was built on a slope. house's usually had pillars to support the house. I remembered one of them shining the flashlight into the pillars and we discovered another corpse within the darkness.
I took five people to search the very back yard which seemed to be a mysterious lake. My mom told me that there were gonna be three children there that weren't gonna let us pass. somehow, I had a bag of Oreo's on me and we decided that we were gonna try to bribe em as some of us slipped by to check the lake. As we were marketing their mom came out and their mom was Co Lanh anh (Spc helper? teacher? idk but i know she aint got no children!) she was being protective, asked us what we were doin with her kids and pulled them closer to her. We explained to her that the area wasn't safe and we told her that we just wanted to check the lake for some clues.
then I woke up -________-
this is what I jotted down on my ipod. word for word starting with the first thing that popped back into my mind. I listed them like notes.
"Co Lanh anh had three kids, I was solving a mystery with friends. There were a couple of bodies hidden throughout the house. I tried to bribe her children with oreos so I could sneak past the limit and search the other side. It was dark and we had a few flashlights. My brown dog was there. He took something to the next room and didn't come back. Friends tried looking for food, an exit. Searched the mysterious house by the lake. Corpse under the house. Mom was there givin advice."
This is what the slope in my dream sort of resembled
yesterday I had a mystery dream ha ha. I think i watched too many Criminal Minds hahaha. (CM is the shittttt!) so I woke up this morning and realized that I had just woken from a dream. the first thing I did was try to remember as much as I possibly can; I even typed it all out on to my ipod just so it would be fresh.
It was dark, late at night and I was with a group of like ten friends. I don't recall who was there except that they were with me. We started from within a mediocre room. My small brown dog and my mom was there. A few of us had flashlights and we just huddled around each other until we couldn't anymore. They all left to search for food within the house and look for an exit.
My dog and my mom stayed back. Apparently my dog found something and dragged it out one of the doors and into the darkness. (my dog never reappeared in my dream) my mom on the other hand was there to answer any questions i had. (she was like one of those information people in a game ha ha) Anyways she told me that there was something wrong with this house and that there was a neighbor next to this house. By then my friends returned but they didn't have food instead they were in shock and panicking as one of them said "there's something seriously wrong with this house *gasp for air* we found corpses"
The story to me then became a mystery that must be solved. so we went outside the house. I noticed that the house was built on a slope. house's usually had pillars to support the house. I remembered one of them shining the flashlight into the pillars and we discovered another corpse within the darkness.
I took five people to search the very back yard which seemed to be a mysterious lake. My mom told me that there were gonna be three children there that weren't gonna let us pass. somehow, I had a bag of Oreo's on me and we decided that we were gonna try to bribe em as some of us slipped by to check the lake. As we were marketing their mom came out and their mom was Co Lanh anh (Spc helper? teacher? idk but i know she aint got no children!) she was being protective, asked us what we were doin with her kids and pulled them closer to her. We explained to her that the area wasn't safe and we told her that we just wanted to check the lake for some clues.
then I woke up -________-
this is what I jotted down on my ipod. word for word starting with the first thing that popped back into my mind. I listed them like notes.
"Co Lanh anh had three kids, I was solving a mystery with friends. There were a couple of bodies hidden throughout the house. I tried to bribe her children with oreos so I could sneak past the limit and search the other side. It was dark and we had a few flashlights. My brown dog was there. He took something to the next room and didn't come back. Friends tried looking for food, an exit. Searched the mysterious house by the lake. Corpse under the house. Mom was there givin advice."
This is what the slope in my dream sort of resembled
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Love
love is hard =] no one said it was goin to be easy. When I think of love my first thought isn't my parents.
Every since I was a child I always associated love with girls; its just how I was influenced. =] this emotion that I feel usually troubles my chest area near my heart. its not a bad feeling on the contrary I actually like this feeling a lot. I feel as though I just wanna give my everything to this other person. Sure, I'm scared as hell, nervous, shaking but aren't those just signs that I really cherish this person. Its as though this person became special, delicate like my own life. When they're in pain, I feel a bit of it too.
"When I tell you
I LOVE YOU
i don't say it out of habit
or to make conversation
I say it to remind you
that you're the best thing
that ever happened to me"
kristine. in one sentence you're my everything. I know i often times I overuse the phrase "I love you" but i don't just say it out of nowhere I said it to remind you that you have someone that really cares for you.
here's a poem that sums up why I'm scared
"I'm scared because...
I don't want anyone else
to have your heart.
I don't want anyone else
to kiss your lips
I don't want anyone else
to be in your arms
I don't want anyone else
to be the one you love
I'm scared because
I don't want anyone
to take my place."
I know that we are not as tight as we were but we'll make it through. I don't even want to consider losing you. as selfish as that might sound that how I feel. I'm NOT saying to that you stop focusing on school -_____-. I know the importance of education and that you really care about it. things will get better, it will. I'll try harder much harder. dont take this as bothersome for me, I'm simply doing this for us. I don't want you to see this as you're fault cause its not. Its just challenges. I know you changed, and thats fine the part im worried about it when you don't have any feeling left for us. anything could be fixed just stick with me.
Every since I was a child I always associated love with girls; its just how I was influenced. =] this emotion that I feel usually troubles my chest area near my heart. its not a bad feeling on the contrary I actually like this feeling a lot. I feel as though I just wanna give my everything to this other person. Sure, I'm scared as hell, nervous, shaking but aren't those just signs that I really cherish this person. Its as though this person became special, delicate like my own life. When they're in pain, I feel a bit of it too.
I LOVE YOU
i don't say it out of habit
or to make conversation
I say it to remind you
that you're the best thing
that ever happened to me"
kristine. in one sentence you're my everything. I know i often times I overuse the phrase "I love you" but i don't just say it out of nowhere I said it to remind you that you have someone that really cares for you.
here's a poem that sums up why I'm scared
I don't want anyone else
to have your heart.
I don't want anyone else
to kiss your lips
I don't want anyone else
to be in your arms
I don't want anyone else
to be the one you love
I'm scared because
I don't want anyone
to take my place."
I know that we are not as tight as we were but we'll make it through. I don't even want to consider losing you. as selfish as that might sound that how I feel. I'm NOT saying to that you stop focusing on school -_____-. I know the importance of education and that you really care about it. things will get better, it will. I'll try harder much harder. dont take this as bothersome for me, I'm simply doing this for us. I don't want you to see this as you're fault cause its not. Its just challenges. I know you changed, and thats fine the part im worried about it when you don't have any feeling left for us. anything could be fixed just stick with me.
some thoughts
Thank you alan, just to let you know I did read every word and I want to thank you. You clearly gave me suggestions that I never thought about. I can not promise you that I will fix my relationship with peter. There's just been so much pain from it I just find it easier to just block him from my life as much as possible. I know he tries, but I don't wanna put up with him right now, maybe in the future. You've been inspiring and I wanna thank you. You brought me some hope and intense emotions when you brought back my old blogs. I sometimes visit some of them, but not all. I even forget sometimes that they were there.
i wanted to just repost this portion:
Thank you God for a good day. I know I haven't spoken to you lately nor have I thought about you much. I know I keep asking you for help. I feel guilty for not talking to you as much anymore. I am not worthy of you. I just want to thank you for helping me on the mid-term this morning. It was really easy, I'm glad I studied. Thank you for movies, I love them all ^^ especially humor. Thank you for music, it helps me kill time when I'm bored. Thank you for my clothes, I think it'd be awkward if I didn't have them :P. Thank you for fortune cookies, I love the little fortunes inside the cracker ^^. I know I haven't been a good son for my parents, but thank you for allowing me to have them. Even though they are busy, weird and annoying at times, I'm glad to have them as my parents. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for them, but that doesn't mean they own my life just cause they gave me life. I'm grateful for what they've done. Thank you for Kristine, she is just absolutely amazing. I hope we last forever. Yes, even peter -.- as messed up as he is, he has been helpful...at times...rarely. Thank you for the friends I have made, all the amazing memories and adventures that i had; I'll never forget them. I thank you for everything you've done for me, for anyone that has been there for me, for everything that has happened to me...thank you for that...thank you God.
With much love,
Joe
your wisdom is truly a blessing *smirk* you're right...I made those happen, I made them possible. Thank you alan i found some faith again.
i wanted to just repost this portion:
Thank you God for a good day. I know I haven't spoken to you lately nor have I thought about you much. I know I keep asking you for help. I feel guilty for not talking to you as much anymore. I am not worthy of you. I just want to thank you for helping me on the mid-term this morning. It was really easy, I'm glad I studied. Thank you for movies, I love them all ^^ especially humor. Thank you for music, it helps me kill time when I'm bored. Thank you for my clothes, I think it'd be awkward if I didn't have them :P. Thank you for fortune cookies, I love the little fortunes inside the cracker ^^. I know I haven't been a good son for my parents, but thank you for allowing me to have them. Even though they are busy, weird and annoying at times, I'm glad to have them as my parents. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for them, but that doesn't mean they own my life just cause they gave me life. I'm grateful for what they've done. Thank you for Kristine, she is just absolutely amazing. I hope we last forever. Yes, even peter -.- as messed up as he is, he has been helpful...at times...rarely. Thank you for the friends I have made, all the amazing memories and adventures that i had; I'll never forget them. I thank you for everything you've done for me, for anyone that has been there for me, for everything that has happened to me...thank you for that...thank you God.
With much love,
Joe
your wisdom is truly a blessing *smirk* you're right...I made those happen, I made them possible. Thank you alan i found some faith again.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
maybe this is tunnel vision
you know despite how hard I try, nothing really ever goes the way I want to. It annoying because I am supposed to have control over my own life right? I should be out there having fun, hanging out, parties and shit instead Im at home everyday...doin the same or similar shit over and over again. clean my room, watch tv, play some games, drive mom around. It also gets to me because theres always peter there able to go and do whatever the hell he wants and Im stuck with the chores. wtf. I've been trying to drive on my own. dad's condition: license, job, learn how (drive with him on the freeway) shit I had my license for a long as time now, job no place I applied to wants to hire me because I dont know how to do anything. I never even had a freaken job before so there is NO EXPERIENCE anywhere. this just pisses me off. so like last week I told my dad that by the end of the week we were gonna practice on the freeway alright. Friday: he told me he had work today so we couldn't. Saturday: mom took my brother's car to SF with her girl friends and went shopping. you know what peter did? he took my car. MY FREAKEN CAR! the one that I was supposed to practice on the highway with. I got hella pissed off, that just ruined my whole entire day and it was in the freaken morning. I just woken up too, fucken A! so I text kristine to see if i could see her but she told me she was at the beach so double shit right into my face. I had no way of venting. I remember thinking to myself -when dad leaves Im just gonna find all the alcohol I can find and drink it. Dad didn't have work today funny huh so I never did poison myself with alcohol. life is a bitch and this God i've been worshiping ever sunday finally gave out. I don't believe in his crap anymore. I've tried hard to follow his teachings to be humble, a helper but shit look that got me no where. aint that great? rather than getting back good karma I got nothing. Oh! it got better today. guess what my dad got sick isn't that funny? Friday, saturday and sunday gee thats just perfect for me aint it. maybe I do have tunnel vision because all I see are the negative crap of my life. It never got any better. nothing got better.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
its been awhile hasn't it
I haven't blogged in a long time or at least it feels like I haven't. Im at school right now no class for another 20 mins and I just felt like blogging.
so yesterday was my birthday. I overslept but it was my birthday so i was like oh what the hell. dad offered me a ride and I agreed only after he told me that I could bring my bike. I was on time yet their group presentation started already anyways i just sat down and observed basically. after that we had a guest speaker, she had hell humor and she talked with us about her life and how being a drug addict took an affect. she made some joke and it was enlightening but also enjoyable. after that was my lld 2 extra class, I thought yesterday was the most productive my instructor has every been. he was quick and informative but not repetitive =]. For japanese, my friend told the whole class that it was my birthday so they went up to the board and wrote it all out in japanese. japanese class wasn't as fun as most days but it was still a blast. Oh! yeah, so i lost my wallet which had my vta pass, i was gonna get a replacement from wilson but he kept forgeting so today i just waited till he got out drive up to milpitas and vta back. I got to see kristine yesterday, finally hahah ^^
check out linkin'park - not alone, it would be perfect for a retreat =]
so yesterday was my birthday. I overslept but it was my birthday so i was like oh what the hell. dad offered me a ride and I agreed only after he told me that I could bring my bike. I was on time yet their group presentation started already anyways i just sat down and observed basically. after that we had a guest speaker, she had hell humor and she talked with us about her life and how being a drug addict took an affect. she made some joke and it was enlightening but also enjoyable. after that was my lld 2 extra class, I thought yesterday was the most productive my instructor has every been. he was quick and informative but not repetitive =]. For japanese, my friend told the whole class that it was my birthday so they went up to the board and wrote it all out in japanese. japanese class wasn't as fun as most days but it was still a blast. Oh! yeah, so i lost my wallet which had my vta pass, i was gonna get a replacement from wilson but he kept forgeting so today i just waited till he got out drive up to milpitas and vta back. I got to see kristine yesterday, finally hahah ^^
check out linkin'park - not alone, it would be perfect for a retreat =]
Saturday, April 3, 2010
You better have a good reason
You talked to peter again? Or did he just send you some funny clip. You know what, I don't even care anymore. I keep asking you to stay away from him for your own protection but it isn't working. Nothing I tell you is working. I don't care anymore. I don't want anything to do with peter. If u wanna get hurt like I did fine, go ahead but leave me out of it. I was checking up on you yesterday and you aimed me saying "peter is retarded, LOLOLOL" I felt sad, and betrayal. You told me that you were doin something and you'd talk to me later. I understood that. But peter. How the he'll did he get into this. After all the support sweetie I gave you, thank you for connecting with peter -_____- that....that just warms my heart. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't even think talking to you is significant anymore because I don't see you react any differently. We still haven't talked about what I wanted to talk to you about. You've been so busy, left me cold in the wind. Nice...
For eveyone else that's reading this, never speak about peter in front of me that's just asking to get your face punched in.
For eveyone else that's reading this, never speak about peter in front of me that's just asking to get your face punched in.
Friday, April 2, 2010
My mind is taken away
I can't think about anything more important than you. The thought that if I put something else before you scares me. I don't wanna lose you, yet it hurts waiting for you to become available. It's sad that I can't ever tell you these painful things when we're together. These sorta thoughts never occur to me when I'm talking with u or when I'm texting u. Even if they do pop up in my mind, I try to ignore it because moments with you are so rare and special to me that I don't wanna waste it making unhappy memories. My mind is always wrapped around the thought of being with you. It might be big it could be small but it's always there. I keep thinking that we'll finally do something together. There's so much I wanna talk to you about. I wanna tell you what I think about, how my day was, our possible future but more so I wanna know more things about you. I like being with you, I like how you are capable of cheering me up, I love your laugh, your distinct smell and creativity. You're very cute, and imporant. I really like spending time with you because you're someone I wanna be with. I know you're busy and I really don't wanna seem like the needy type. I just needed to clear my mind.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
what did I do today?
I woke up at around like 11 i think. got downstairs and my mom and peter needed to go out to buy potstickers and other things at costco. I stayed hope played some more onimusha. mom came home and I helped her place the food in. we had pizza and tried out our new toast/baker. pizza was good~ gotta love costco pizza. we then cleaned up the kitchen some more. we started yesterday but didn't finish. Today we sorted out the junk food and put them all back into the cabinet. I then cleeaned the very top of the fridge. it was sooo dusty, plus there was really old lunch bags that belong to my dad. seriously they were OLD there were traces of faded colors little scraps. i wiped the whole thing down. after that, we moved to the garage. we cleared like 1/3 of it into our parking lot. organized what was what, what was to be thrown away, what belongs to who. some of our grandma's stuff and aunts stuff are there. we put all our dad's supplies together. I vacuumed the drawer and placed them outside. i then vacuumed the garage gate thing. soo filled with spiderwebs. we had to kill some of the spiders as well. once we cleared the right side of the garage peter and I dragged our really old fridge out to the front of the garage so that we would dispense with it easier. it was really hard work though cause the fridge smell completely bad and there wasn't a good grip anywhere so we tried our best but at certain times the two doors would open and vent a really vomiting odor. We had to flatten alot of stuff and throw away old junk. Our recycling bin is filled to the limit and in my opinion the garage isn't anywhere finished. I had to climb on top of a small drawer to stomp on the recycling bin. I didn't wanna stomp too hard because I was scared that the bin would just pop! and the trash would be scattered everywhere. we then placed them all back in the garage. mom says were done I thing not. mom and dad have two jobs. mom needs to contact our relative to get rid of the old fridge. dad needs to sort out his tools and stuff within the garage and throw away unnecessary things. they both keep finding ways to keep something. like a common bag or a broken down tool and say "we could fix and use this" in reality they have no time to do them. sure if they had loads of time I wouldn't mind if they could get it done but the case is even when they have time, they can't do anything but rest or do some other things such as vacation, resting, tv, gardening (fishes), clothes. they never have the time to fix or reuse them, it just becomes trash that's taking up space. its been "many" years since they said they wanted to clean up the garage so that they can park the car within the garage yet it has never been done. i saw kristine today =] not in person but webcam. we didn't say much but it was nice to just see her smile and laugh =]well imma go to sleep. tired to death bye byes~
This is what my garage feels like to me-
Saturday, March 27, 2010
What a load of crap
The world is so full of shit. Anger, lust, greed, and personal benefit. No one gives a damn anymore. More or less, I don't give a damn anymore. Why should I give my all when what I get in return is half ass. Is that fair to me? Like hell it is! I'm tired of putting so much time, effort, sweat into everything I do. Where is my dependable person, huh? It sure ain't my parents, it none of my friends, it's not Kristine and it's obviously not peter. I came to a understanding today, no one is dependable. They all do their own little thing. Dad isn't raising me...he's just supporting me with money, shelter; most of the time he's with his damn fishes. Mom is clueless, she has no spine of her own, she can't decide for her self and is often times in her own world when she shops. Today? She left me standing there in the heat to dry up for 40 minutes. She knew exactly when I got out and yet she failed to pick me up on time. Her excuse? My phone was on silent because of work and I haven't switched it. >:0 what the hell?! Fix it then, why leave it silent so you can't hear? What is the freaken point of having it with you when you don't even use it. Retarded. Kristine? I think u understand why I feel this way. Peter? You all know about him. I'm so glad he's outta my life. Hopefully someone can just take him away somewhere so he doesn't come back. I can honestly say that hanging around with him will lead to death one day. If he does die though...shit I'll volunteer to cremate him. I'll collect the ashes and store them in the shitiest container I can find like a well used and dirty small jar. I'll keep him there for as long as I live; I'll let him rot in there. Anyways, point? I can't depend on anyone but myself, you guys have failed me too much. There's so much disappointment it sickens me. Fuck I hate this world.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Spring me down
today was a very warm day, one of many future days. Warm tomorrows, dry air and lots of sweat. yaaaay (sarcasm) I woke up prepared and left the house. i biked just in time to make the lightrail and barely made it to my class. hmm seems like I'll have to wake up even earlier. been losing sleep lately, my left eye is hella exhausted. When the eye is really tired it tends to flicker or twitch uncontrollably, that's my eye right now. -___- hmmm wat else. I beat the first onimusha -so proud- i have 2 more to beat. hungry imma grab some food, Laaaaater
Sunday, March 14, 2010
"sizing up sperm"
L-M-A-O-! Oh my gaud this is by far the funniest shit I've seen lately. Basically someone had the thought of portraying the life of the sperm, fighting their way through "warfare" to recieve the egg. It's ackward but creative. Lol
Monday, March 8, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
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the new trailer came out awhile ago i just havent blogged about it yet. but seriously...OMGOSH!!! I hella wanna watch that. just the thought of it is like smothering me. did you guys see the trailer yet? you should. the graphics are crazy and they made his tattoo more realistic. Im hoping that they'll have four movies cuz there's four season. sigh. I can't wait. Im gonna go crazy when I sit in that theater. Kevin and I plan to rewatch the first season cause the movie seemed to stopped at the northern water tribe battle. That battle was at the end of the first season so thats why we decided to watch it up to that point. its so crazy. I wonder how appa will look like. I didn't even notice it but you could acually see appa's tail in the new trailer. it was like on the left side like in the middle section. then there's momo too. I kinda wished zuko and this uncle looked better. the uncle doesn't seem that chubby and zukko looks really tan (indian) in the cartoon he was hella pale. anyways, Im hella down to watch that movie. July 2nd set your calenders people!!! =]
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Pondering
It is 1:46am as I'm writing this. I'm supposed to talk to Kristine tomorrow at spcl. I'm kinda wondering what will happen. Will she yell at me for not talking to her? I really don't know what'll happen. I'm trying to picture what tomorrow will be like. I see myself getting into an arguement with her. I've been thinking of starting another blog. The new one would be a experiment. I was motivated by the movie Julie & Julia. I'll commit to it every day. I'll type truthfully about how my day started and what happened for the whole year. It sounds like hella work but I'm the type to commit till it's finished. Off to bed I guess.
Friday, January 22, 2010
I have nothing to say
I tried talking to you and texting you. Lately when ever I tried to talk or understand you, you just don't wanna talk anymore. You stopped talking so I've stopped talking. You keep shooting me down with your words. We barely talk anymore. When we do talk, you only say a few words. You have these wall that I can't get by. Ive tried talking to you, i tried reaching out to you. I have my reasons for not talking to you these past couple of days. What's your reason? That I am being stupid? Idk. Frankly I can't really tell what you're thinking lately. If you want to talk then text me, I ain't gonna out of the blue contact you like always. Thisll last awhile so we'll see how it goes. Why should I text someone who won't listen. Why would I text someone who doesn't wanna talk.
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