some thoughts

Thank you alan, just to let you know I did read every word and I want to thank you. You clearly gave me suggestions that I never thought about. I can not promise you that I will fix my relationship with peter. There's just been so much pain from it I just find it easier to just block him from my life as much as possible. I know he tries, but I don't wanna put up with him right now, maybe in the future. You've been inspiring and I wanna thank you. You brought me some hope and intense emotions when you brought back my old blogs. I sometimes visit some of them, but not all. I even forget sometimes that they were there.

i wanted to just repost this portion:

Thank you God for a good day. I know I haven't spoken to you lately nor have I thought about you much. I know I keep asking you for help. I feel guilty for not talking to you as much anymore. I am not worthy of you. I just want to thank you for helping me on the mid-term this morning. It was really easy, I'm glad I studied. Thank you for movies, I love them all ^^ especially humor. Thank you for music, it helps me kill time when I'm bored. Thank you for my clothes, I think it'd be awkward if I didn't have them :P. Thank you for fortune cookies, I love the little fortunes inside the cracker ^^. I know I haven't been a good son for my parents, but thank you for allowing me to have them. Even though they are busy, weird and annoying at times, I'm glad to have them as my parents. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for them, but that doesn't mean they own my life just cause they gave me life. I'm grateful for what they've done. Thank you for Kristine, she is just absolutely amazing. I hope we last forever. Yes, even peter -.- as messed up as he is, he has been helpful...at times...rarely. Thank you for the friends I have made, all the amazing memories and adventures that i had; I'll never forget them. I thank you for everything you've done for me, for anyone that has been there for me, for everything that has happened to me...thank you for that...thank you God.

With much love,
Joe

your wisdom is truly a blessing *smirk* you're right...I made those happen, I made them possible. Thank you alan i found some faith again.