This was playing during youth mass a like 30 minutes ago. Its one of my favorite religious songs. today I thought about her again, my sister. Not to be gloomy but it just what i thought about during church. She'd be three this year. I thought about how my life would be different if she was here. She'd be running around our house, messing around, trying to touch everything. sigh. I still blame myself for what happened its lame but its something I can't help but see it any other way than my fault. If I had helped out more, told my mom to go rest and let us handle it..if I payed more attention I might have been able to prevent it from happening. This is something that'll stay with me forever.
after the song, I had the thought of hugging my mom and just apologize for screwing up but I couldn't say it at all. I did however feel as though I was gonna cry. I felt my throat tighten and my eyes goin blurry. I didn't cry though cause like my parents would be like wth. yeah... RIP
Your older brother,
Joe
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