Darn it

Sigh, I won't be able to sleep unless I get this out of me.
She gonna go to stockton, and I thought milpitas was far.
Questions that keep recurring in my mind...
Will she move on without me?
Will she even visit me?
Are we gonna resort to webcam?
Am I gonna be okay?
I know that she's been told what to do her whole life and I know that what she wants more than anything is her own freedom from anyone's grasp. I have to agree that she deserve to do whatever she wants. She's been through he'll ever since I've known her.

A part of me wants her to do things for herself but then again I want to be there, with her yah know? Day by day. She told me I was selfish today. I don't hear that alot. Actually I think she's the only one that's ever called me that. I questioned myself if I was really selfish today. From her point of view I saw what she meant. I wanted her close by and that was selfish of me. There are only a few things I really want in this world and this was one of them. Everything else is just to pass the time or extras, this? This is important. If Stockton is where you wanna go then by all means go. I'm gonna miss you so much though you don't even know half of it.

I hope that we'll still be together someway somehow. I did think about saving this relationship for the future but it was kinda hard to bear thinking that I won't be spending them without you. I'm hoping for the impossible but that's all I have. The actual time it takes me to go to stockton is apparently 1:40 min. 87. something miles -_______- I just had to check how far it was. I'm glad you got it all planned out. I'm not sure if I'll be able to sleep or not.