Childhood

Hmm...I thought about my childhood in church today.
The thought that came to me was when I was a little boy going grocery shopping with my mom.
I remember that we had our mini games or signs we did with each other.
For example, my mom and I used to wink with one eye and scrunch our faces a little then switch to the other side.
We would do it really fast and see who'd mess up or loses.
To a certain age we stopped doing that...I kinda miss it now.
I'll probably pass it to my children in the future =] if I have any that is.
But yeah~ thought about my mom today.
Night~

OMG!

SO I just checked my email right, well...I was supposed to check it out yesterday but I was at kristine and wils house. I completely forgot that my grade for the english final came in yesterday (May 20th)

woke up, came downstairs, turn on computer, was checking email when I saw my teacher's name

Me: oh!...-did i pass?- *nervous*
scroll, scroll, scroll
checked the oldest emails
eventually I clicked on my teachers email

what did I find?
this

"Congratulations, you passed the final exam.

Sharmin"

Me: O_______O whaaaa....really?
response to teacher's email: "what?! REALLY?! IS THIS A PRANK MRS. KHAN?!

-Joseph Nguyen"

I AM SO FREAKEN HAPPPY RIGHT NOWWWWWWW!!!!!
ENGLISH 1AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

2010 May 16

One year, that's right, it's been one year.

I admit, I've been slacking off, not been much help, or even boring at times,
Know that I'm sorry, I don't mean to be boring or helpless,

The only thing I can think of to telling you after an entire year is..
I love you.
Take those words very seriously, its not just there for show
I mean what I say and that goes for everybody I talk to.
Im truthful, I won't lie.
I may be clumsy, weird,
I often times don't even make any sense but at least I'm honest right?
So when I tell you that I love you, I mean it,
I love the person you've become,
I know I can be jerk -____- I made you cry, sad, mad, and stressed,
Sometimes I just do things cause I want your attention,
You know how happy you make me whenever we interact,
There so much I wanna say but the words won't come,
If you looked into my eyes you'd see that,
I love being with you.

Darn it

Sigh, I won't be able to sleep unless I get this out of me.
She gonna go to stockton, and I thought milpitas was far.
Questions that keep recurring in my mind...
Will she move on without me?
Will she even visit me?
Are we gonna resort to webcam?
Am I gonna be okay?
I know that she's been told what to do her whole life and I know that what she wants more than anything is her own freedom from anyone's grasp. I have to agree that she deserve to do whatever she wants. She's been through he'll ever since I've known her.

A part of me wants her to do things for herself but then again I want to be there, with her yah know? Day by day. She told me I was selfish today. I don't hear that alot. Actually I think she's the only one that's ever called me that. I questioned myself if I was really selfish today. From her point of view I saw what she meant. I wanted her close by and that was selfish of me. There are only a few things I really want in this world and this was one of them. Everything else is just to pass the time or extras, this? This is important. If Stockton is where you wanna go then by all means go. I'm gonna miss you so much though you don't even know half of it.

I hope that we'll still be together someway somehow. I did think about saving this relationship for the future but it was kinda hard to bear thinking that I won't be spending them without you. I'm hoping for the impossible but that's all I have. The actual time it takes me to go to stockton is apparently 1:40 min. 87. something miles -_______- I just had to check how far it was. I'm glad you got it all planned out. I'm not sure if I'll be able to sleep or not.

I had a double dream

this was last week but whatever,
I had a dream within a dream this morning. It was soo weird.

So in the beginning I remember there was school the following days. Peter invited me to go to vietnam (no clue) for some business. We were at the airport waiting in line to use there computer. I clanced ahead and notice the current user was on aim but more importantly who was on the aim. I saw kristine's name listed and I thought to myself, hey we know the same person. Then somehow we ended up in a room. people in the room: peter, kristine and I. Apparently this was her room but it didn't look anything like her actual room. I mean there was a bunk bed, a toilet, a sink and some drawer in a slightly dimmed room. We messed around for hours doin weird stuff. She left to get something so we waited. There were strange noises and we thought it was rats but it wasn't. We couldn't find anything, then ALL OF A SUDDEN a dude appeared from one of the other rooms (I cant remember who it was) it seemed that he was the one causing the noises though.

Anyways he left. I had removed the toilet cover and shoved it back into the toilet so that nothing could fall in it. (awkward~~~) Apparently I was cleaning something up with a rag and after I finished I tossed it back where I got it from and it sadly landed in the toilet. I freaked out and ran to get it out.

Meanwhile peter was about to take #2 in the sink (SUPER AWKWARD) I got the rag out it wasn't dirty and no peter didn't take a shit in the sink.

so kristine came back and we all decided to sleep. As we were about to pass out there was a phone call. It was kristine's friend and as they were talking she walked into the room. I was like wth? how'd that happen?! somehow her name was nancy O-O I..never..met her in my entire life..yet I know her name?..weird~ she asked if she could stay over for a bit. Then she asked peter and I some questions like how old we were and stuff. then she just left.

we all went back to sleep and had a dream that we were all in fruit costumes with new hair cuts with dyed hair. we just messed around with the costumes.

in the morning, I think kristine was dreaming about nancy hitting on us and started mumbling in her sleep. I woke her up to tell her it was just a dream and we k!$$ed?

I then told them that I had a crazy dream as I looked around the room. I noticed that there were pictures of fruits on her blanket identical to my dream costumes and then on the side of her bed had colorfuls stripes which I recalled was the color of our hair in my dream.

Then bam! im infront of a camera about to take one of those class photos? we were all in formal clothing for some reason. I was the only one in a suit without socks?
...then I believe I woke up and jotted it all down before I forgot.

yeah..my first double dream. dream within a dream are crazy @___@ I think eric, my classmate influenced this dream because he told me he had a dream within a dream within a dream. I now know how he felt.

its been awhile

"You are mine"


This was playing during youth mass a like 30 minutes ago. Its one of my favorite religious songs. today I thought about her again, my sister. Not to be gloomy but it just what i thought about during church. She'd be three this year. I thought about how my life would be different if she was here. She'd be running around our house, messing around, trying to touch everything. sigh. I still blame myself for what happened its lame but its something I can't help but see it any other way than my fault. If I had helped out more, told my mom to go rest and let us handle it..if I payed more attention I might have been able to prevent it from happening. This is something that'll stay with me forever.

after the song, I had the thought of hugging my mom and just apologize for screwing up but I couldn't say it at all. I did however feel as though I was gonna cry. I felt my throat tighten and my eyes goin blurry. I didn't cry though cause like my parents would be like wth. yeah... RIP


Your older brother,
Joe

05/09/10

first time driving in the freeway on a rainy day and I HELLA OWNED IT. yeah.

new stuff:
I got me new shades (finally) TT___TT favorite pair broke awhile ago *the pain*
Got me basket ball short! *shock shock* first pair ever. I know im lame but my goshhhhh they were hella softttttt.
got a jacket if it every gets cold.

Planning:
making my avatar hat and shoes by july 2nd
Job *please someoneee hirrrreeeee meeeeee alreaaady*
school guys with my workout buddy, eric tran *good guy good guy, funny guy* ^____^
rawr next week is my english final eh he he...
i wanna go swimminggggggg
summer school prep.
insurance is still linked to job -_____-

Dreams R so random that they become cool

so yesterday...to this morning? I had a dream and I usually don't have dreams anymore; its kind of sad when I think about it now. Dream are the most random thoughts when a person sleeps and in my case I have dreams from action to mystery.

yesterday I had a mystery dream ha ha. I think i watched too many Criminal Minds hahaha. (CM is the shittttt!) so I woke up this morning and realized that I had just woken from a dream. the first thing I did was try to remember as much as I possibly can; I even typed it all out on to my ipod just so it would be fresh.

So this is the story...

It was dark, late at night and I was with a group of like ten friends. I don't recall who was there except that they were with me. We started from within a mediocre room. My small brown dog and my mom was there. A few of us had flashlights and we just huddled around each other until we couldn't anymore. They all left to search for food within the house and look for an exit.

My dog and my mom stayed back. Apparently my dog found something and dragged it out one of the doors and into the darkness. (my dog never reappeared in my dream) my mom on the other hand was there to answer any questions i had. (she was like one of those information people in a game ha ha) Anyways she told me that there was something wrong with this house and that there was a neighbor next to this house. By then my friends returned but they didn't have food instead they were in shock and panicking as one of them said "there's something seriously wrong with this house *gasp for air* we found corpses"

The story to me then became a mystery that must be solved. so we went outside the house. I noticed that the house was built on a slope. house's usually had pillars to support the house. I remembered one of them shining the flashlight into the pillars and we discovered another corpse within the darkness.

I took five people to search the very back yard which seemed to be a mysterious lake. My mom told me that there were gonna be three children there that weren't gonna let us pass. somehow, I had a bag of Oreo's on me and we decided that we were gonna try to bribe em as some of us slipped by to check the lake. As we were marketing their mom came out and their mom was Co Lanh anh (Spc helper? teacher? idk but i know she aint got no children!) she was being protective, asked us what we were doin with her kids and pulled them closer to her. We explained to her that the area wasn't safe and we told her that we just wanted to check the lake for some clues.

then I woke up -________-

this is what I jotted down on my ipod. word for word starting with the first thing that popped back into my mind. I listed them like notes.

"Co Lanh anh had three kids, I was solving a mystery with friends. There were a couple of bodies hidden throughout the house. I tried to bribe her children with oreos so I could sneak past the limit and search the other side. It was dark and we had a few flashlights. My brown dog was there. He took something to the next room and didn't come back. Friends tried looking for food, an exit. Searched the mysterious house by the lake. Corpse under the house. Mom was there givin advice."

This is what the slope in my dream sort of resembled