Why do I keep thinking of her...

What is with me these days? I keep thinking of her? I thought I was incurable for the longest time, but what's with "this" feeling. Why do I always feel complete when she's next to me. What is with me? Why am I so nervous when I'm with her? I don't understand myself anymore. Why is it that whenever I'm with her, and talking to her I feel so calm yet so nervous at the same time. I've confirmed that I like her but why does my mind keep thinking of her? Did like my brain run out of things to think about? That's not possible though. Why haven't I done anything else besides spending my spare time with her? I don't know what's with me these days. I like spending time with her though. I like the feeling, the atmosphere...I just like the idea of her being there.

I'm really scared of the rumors. They always somehow make it to the parents and then they gossip. Overall its just a lot of stress. I can't tell the future so I fear what will become of us. Will it last forever? or will it just be a break up and its back to tears. I hope for the best, I really hope for the best. I hope this will be the last person I will ever get with. =] but yeah, I have a feeling that we are gonna stay together for a very long time x]