useless

I feel like dying. I feels as though I'm dying on the inside.
maybe its emotional pain or something but Idk.
all i know is that i feel so useless when I'm so far away from you.
I can't do anything this far away from you.
I try to comfort you through text, through aim through words but sometimes it just feels like Im repeating myself but it has no effect.
I am capable of doing nothing this far.
I want to take all your pain away, not just for awhile but forever.
it just seems as though I can't do that, and that just kills me each time you cry
its as i said, i see you as a part of me so...
when you feel sad...I feel pain...
Its impossible for me to be fine when you're suffering so much


i noticed you cry alot.
i'm sorry if any of those tears were because of me
there's nothing wrong with crying, I see it a stress reliever...
Its too bad all my tears went to waste
There's alot of times where i want to cry...but the tears wont come
instead it just hurts, the pain never ends
Its so hard for me to cry now...
There are times when I'm supposed to cry yet i cant
i keep asking myself -why?-
(why can't i cry?)
The feeling is there, my throat is tightening and the words wont come out...
yet i can not cry
i'd cry along with you if i could but i cant...I just cant
all i could do is give you icons like T-T or 8-8 or -tears-
I am so freaken useless