Why couldn't my internet worked yesterday >:(

ugh, so like I woke up wash my hair and what not. Then my mom came to me and was like
"wanna go to Tofu House?" and I was like hmmmmm
I decided to go because I stayed home too much ya know?
so yeah I went with her to Santa Clara.
We got seated and ordered our food and I noticed this Korean little boy and his family.
He kept looking at me and when I look at him, he'd smile.
dude he is the cutest little boy I've ever seen, his face like scrunches up and everything
so cute x] but yeah; ONWARD WITH THE STORY
so my mom asked me "Do you know what day it is?"
I thought for a second, May 2nd, mom's birthday is the 7th, sister? the 2nd.
It was my sister's birthday. I would have forgot it if my mom didn't remind me T-T
I feel so ashamed of myself. Anyways, thanks to that I thought about it the whole day.
She would be two years old today. She'd be able to walk maybe say a couple of word.
I think she and could have fun. sigh. Two years...I'm handle it now but I still hella guilt.
Sigh man, I feel like freakin shit now ugh. Yeah, this is as far as im gonna go.