o....__.....o

does that make me look like I have a mustache? :D
idk why i did that -____- im completely bored outta my mind
I think if you stay home too long there are symptoms
let me explain:
1. you'll lose track of time and when i say time i mean "today is monday? O___O?"
2. you'll eat everything in your house.
3. you'll get lazy and not wanna follow through with your plan.
4. you'll stay up super late constantly and wake up around 12 or 1.
5. you'll have mood swings more often.
6. Tv becomes your best friend.
7. It's usually you at home by yourself.
8. you'll start to act...actually i'm quite sane.
9. everything you interact with will eventually bore you.
10. I just wanted to have a one through ten :P

Well tomorrow is the day i choose my classes. I remember it was tomorrow not sure what the time is and not sure how i check again. hmmm. :/
i hope it goes smoothly cause its a pain rescheduling -____-

Oh! target called me the other day. I was playing games when i heard a phone call. it then went to speaker and the first thing I heard was "hi~ This is Target and..." my mind lit up and I ran to it but i didn't wanna pick up cause I might not remember what they say so I just waited till she finished. i haven't called back but i really should. I hope I get hired -______- i need a job.

Hmmm

I cut my hair.
Cleaned my room.
Washed and hung my clothes.
Watched part of a movie.
Planned a movie with a few people tomorrow.
Worked out.
Washed the dishes.
My mom snores....very...very loud...kinda reminds me of cang haha
Oh fuck I wanna watch avatar the last airbender movie July 2nd!!!!!!!!

Blaaaah

-_______-
its ridiculously boring at my house.
my rooms a mess so i i started cleaning it yesterday.
I've been sleeping on the couch for one..two..five days?
ever since the beach I haven't been working out at all. its all flaaaaabs again T_____T
Another thing! my face started pealing cause of sunburn so now i have two shades of skin on my face.

Summer school. sooooooo bottom line for me is no summer school.
yes, that means I'm gonna take english 1A sjsu. why? cause they don't except transfers for that class. So i had to take the placement test. my grade was "in between" so basically remediation part 2. but why the heck I take it then. even if i did take it summer would be over and I still have english 1A -_____- this sucks..

besides that my money is low. it hass never been this low :(
my plan: JOB = MONEY.
gotta get a job.
gotta tell my dad about no summer school.
hawaii? :D *surrrrrrffinnnnngggggg* (maybe)
laptop? -______- its been too long.
hmm i think thats it :/

so its finally over is it

We finally did it huh. It just seemed that it was gonna happen sooner or later at this point. Maybe that's why I'm not in shock, surprised or crying. Instead, I'm smiling. How strange it is for me to smile as we broke apart. I'm not smiling because it's what I wanted, heavens no. I wanted us to stay together but that...that was just wishful thinking. I'm don't regret any of it, maybe that's why it doesn't hurt because I realize the situation beforehand. I'm not sure if it just girls but but all the guys I know commit to what they do. I don't understand why girls feel the need to be doubtful. Doubt never sunk into my mind until you told me that you had your own doubts. Maybe I got paranoid idk. Time to confess my sins then. I did lie. I lied sometimes when you asked if I was alright. I knew you were busy adding more trouble wouldn't help and I uaually find myself again anyways so I just told you I was alright. What else did I lie about. I lied when I said I felt the same way as I did she we first fell for each other. I knew it was t true but I refused to believe it so I said I still did. Truth is I didn't feel the same anymore. The absence that you left took a big affct on how I felt. I think I wouldve been fine if we kept staying in touch but that changed somewhere. How unfortunate. Like you said. There isn't a doubt that I do care for you and love you as well but we aren't "in love" anymore. I think the thing I missed the most was spending time with you. I could of spent days with you if I could but things got problematic. We stopped seeing each other. Me having to commute made you feel like you were burdening me. Your mom, school, the spc thing, blackie. Yeah I missed that the most. Spending time. I hope you don't see this as your fault. I mean I know you are probably the reason why this ended but I still don't want you to see this as your fault. For me I'm trying to see the better side of this. I know this isn't the end of the world. You don't have to be troubled anymore. I get to be single? (not so sure I'm happy about that) I get to find myself now without feeling bad for leaving you. Who knows maybe we might have another chance in the future. I know one thing imma do. I know for sure imma stay away from relationships though. I need to explore a whole lot more. Somewhat like you =] shit I know I wanna change some stuff about myself. I still have to find out alot of stuff so it's not all bad. Sure I'm sad, but only because it ended so soon. We barely got to talk though. We basically died out haha. Idk maybe I'm trying to laugh it off. Maybe I had my heart crushed so many times that this became normal. What evvvvs it's over now and it's tv past so imma just let it pass =] step towards the future?

hmm o___o

hey i made a tumblr...
I found it really funny how easy it was to creat one.
anyways here yah go if you wanna follow me
http://ukn03itsj03.tumblr.com/
Peace~

June 6

Hey...sup people. It's late, actually it's 1:05 am so yeah really late.
I just wanted to pay my respects to Kristine's dog, blackie. 5 years and 8 months is a long period.

When I think of blackie these are my first thoughts:
Energetic
Black
Running
Hyper
Kristine's cherished animal
Cute personality
And truely lovable.

I heard he went missing the day before and I really thought he was gonna come back...like he always does.
It saddened me when I found out this morning that he had just passed away yesterday.
I was like WTF?! I couldn't believe what I heard. I didn't know what Kristine was going through only that it must of felt like alot of pain.

My last memory of him is something I'll always remember
Last week was the last time I saw him and
I'm glad I decided to play with him
He was doin the usual running around the backyard. This time he had a yellow and red ball in his mouth.
I messed with him, grabbed his ball and "tried" to play catch. Whenever he got the ball though, he'd just run away with it in his mouth =] although it wasn't what I wanted it was still really cute. I also scratched his body that day too.
*secret* I remember that day she told me that she had bathed him with shampoo and he smelled really good.
I didn't wanna look like an idiot and start smelling the dog so I waited till she left before I sniffed him =] he did smell good and I openly said that too.
I also remembered that I had to wash my hand after to "played" catch cause the ball was filled with his drool.

Imma miss that really cool midnight black blackie
He had the cutest face I swear.
I loved that dog.

Saddest part I don't even know how he died...I mean it's not something I can just ask. I'll just wait it out I guess.
He was alot of things: he was a dog, he was family, and he was a friend.
A whole lotta people are gonna miss you man...I know im gonna miss ya..
I mean F#€@! That dog was the best...
Goodnight blackie... we love you.

Fanime

its 12:11 uploading pic from fanime.

the event was fun. i wasted hella money...then again its not really wasting is it if i think it was beneficial huh :D

so what happened?
4 day event fri-mon
we stayed for fri-sun
peter, me, cang, eric, van and paul went to fanime and came back to the fairmont hotel to sleep. We met up with marwin, alex, michelle, sophia, will and kenny. that and we saw people that we knew one time or another in our lives there.

things I bought?
38 avatar the last airbender pins ($30-40 total)
its alot but if you seen the artwork, its niceeee *basically a dollar for every pin*
3 gundam models ($93 total)
not into models but these looked really nice and gundams are expensive, they're usually $50 and up for just one so I say three for that price was alright. plus I got to open the box to inspect the quality so that was a plus. It looks really nice though.
4 posters ($10 total)
I got a ken poster (streetfighter) poster for free cause fanime was closing, i paid 8 for a avatar poster and 2 for 2 bleach posters =]
1 necklace ($6 total)
I bought some really nice flower glass necklace for my mom.
2 avatar card thingy ($5)
its really funny =] it asks like a question and at the bottom are the avatar characters in a row with their distinctive responses :P you'll get it if you see it.

I think that was it o____o I was gonna buy a really really like REALLY NICEE avatar poster but I didn't think it was worth the money -____- so no. that and a bleach sword but I decided not to get that either.

Things I wanted to buy
I wanted to get something for my dad so i walked around. I quickly notice how nothing there is his sorta thing -_________-
kristine? I tried looking for something that would suit you and be useful at the same time. I couldn't find anything T________T I saw this really nice hair clip thing on this girl. i asked her where she got it from and she told me in the dealer's hall. dealer's hall just closed like 5 minutes ago. sadness. T___T

free stuff?
weelllllll the first one was the picture of RYU.
how'd I notice? a swarm of people storming to one of the artist's dest and people started picking up hella posters. yep yep. got there in time for one ^____^
the second one was a bookmark. she made us dance for like 10 seconds then let us grab one from her hand. I got some cat thing. its not bad, its kinda cute. idk if you want it kristine but its better with you than with me cause i dont even use book markers :/

There was also a Rave. I went to check it out with paul it was alright. we just stood there against the wall cause i was too tired to dance. the dj was good though and I felt like dancing but i ended up not goin cause we went home early.

there was also a concert. hella loud and I wasn't a fan but yeah. it was nice i guess o.o stayed for like 5 mins and left.

I missed the black and white ball :/ i wanted to see that one too.

fanime was fun. costly but it was really fun. I'd go again next year =]