What a load of crap

The world is so full of shit. Anger, lust, greed, and personal benefit. No one gives a damn anymore. More or less, I don't give a damn anymore. Why should I give my all when what I get in return is half ass. Is that fair to me? Like hell it is! I'm tired of putting so much time, effort, sweat into everything I do. Where is my dependable person, huh? It sure ain't my parents, it none of my friends, it's not Kristine and it's obviously not peter. I came to a understanding today, no one is dependable. They all do their own little thing. Dad isn't raising me...he's just supporting me with money, shelter; most of the time he's with his damn fishes. Mom is clueless, she has no spine of her own, she can't decide for her self and is often times in her own world when she shops. Today? She left me standing there in the heat to dry up for 40 minutes. She knew exactly when I got out and yet she failed to pick me up on time. Her excuse? My phone was on silent because of work and I haven't switched it. >:0 what the hell?! Fix it then, why leave it silent so you can't hear? What is the freaken point of having it with you when you don't even use it. Retarded. Kristine? I think u understand why I feel this way. Peter? You all know about him. I'm so glad he's outta my life. Hopefully someone can just take him away somewhere so he doesn't come back. I can honestly say that hanging around with him will lead to death one day. If he does die though...shit I'll volunteer to cremate him. I'll collect the ashes and store them in the shitiest container I can find like a well used and dirty small jar. I'll keep him there for as long as I live; I'll let him rot in there. Anyways, point? I can't depend on anyone but myself, you guys have failed me too much. There's so much disappointment it sickens me. Fuck I hate this world.

Spring me down

today was a very warm day, one of many future days. Warm tomorrows, dry air and lots of sweat. yaaaay (sarcasm) I woke up prepared and left the house. i biked just in time to make the lightrail and barely made it to my class. hmm seems like I'll have to wake up even earlier. been losing sleep lately, my left eye is hella exhausted. When the eye is really tired it tends to flicker or twitch uncontrollably, that's my eye right now. -___- hmmm wat else. I beat the first onimusha -so proud- i have 2 more to beat. hungry imma grab some food, Laaaaater

"sizing up sperm"

L-M-A-O-! Oh my gaud this is by far the funniest shit I've seen lately. Basically someone had the thought of portraying the life of the sperm, fighting their way through "warfare" to recieve the egg. It's ackward but creative. Lol

movie movie

I wanna watch The bounty hunter

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the new trailer came out awhile ago i just havent blogged about it yet. but seriously...OMGOSH!!! I hella wanna watch that. just the thought of it is like smothering me. did you guys see the trailer yet? you should. the graphics are crazy and they made his tattoo more realistic. Im hoping that they'll have four movies cuz there's four season. sigh. I can't wait. Im gonna go crazy when I sit in that theater. Kevin and I plan to rewatch the first season cause the movie seemed to stopped at the northern water tribe battle. That battle was at the end of the first season so thats why we decided to watch it up to that point. its so crazy. I wonder how appa will look like. I didn't even notice it but you could acually see appa's tail in the new trailer. it was like on the left side like in the middle section. then there's momo too. I kinda wished zuko and this uncle looked better. the uncle doesn't seem that chubby and zukko looks really tan (indian) in the cartoon he was hella pale. anyways, Im hella down to watch that movie. July 2nd set your calenders people!!! =]

Pondering

It is 1:46am as I'm writing this. I'm supposed to talk to Kristine tomorrow at spcl. I'm kinda wondering what will happen. Will she yell at me for not talking to her? I really don't know what'll happen. I'm trying to picture what tomorrow will be like. I see myself getting into an arguement with her. I've been thinking of starting another blog. The new one would be a experiment. I was motivated by the movie Julie & Julia. I'll commit to it every day. I'll type truthfully about how my day started and what happened for the whole year. It sounds like hella work but I'm the type to commit till it's finished. Off to bed I guess.

I have nothing to say

I tried talking to you and texting you. Lately when ever I tried to talk or understand you, you just don't wanna talk anymore. You stopped talking so I've stopped talking. You keep shooting me down with your words. We barely talk anymore. When we do talk, you only say a few words. You have these wall that I can't get by. Ive tried talking to you, i tried reaching out to you. I have my reasons for not talking to you these past couple of days. What's your reason? That I am being stupid? Idk. Frankly I can't really tell what you're thinking lately. If you want to talk then text me, I ain't gonna out of the blue contact you like always. Thisll last awhile so we'll see how it goes. Why should I text someone who won't listen. Why would I text someone who doesn't wanna talk.