The bad thing happened :/

I did say "BRING IT ON!!!"
Two days ago I had my positive phase and foretold that something bad was gonna happen soon
It happened today :/
So I woke up at 11 ish~ sat up read some manga online (started fairytale, its not bad not bad =])
played final fantasy 12 again (just collecting more espers, already beat the game)
I didn't play much though I set myself today on cleaning the house for the avatar event on friday.
so I stopped at 1 and peter and I started cleaning up
idk maybe it was just me but it seemed that peter was a bit laggy, he went back and forth trying to consult with me wheather or not to work this sunday or not. then he'd turn the music hella loud and just loath around for awhile. whatever eventually he got to work
We did good cleaning and It's cleaner now but still looks like shit in my eyes cause if it was my house I'd do things differently -_____-
So we did a good job.

What I was able to do:
Scrubbed the tub/the sink/ the toilet
Washed the dishes/and clothes
made he mirrors in the both toilets all shinny
took out the trash and recycle multiple times
vaccumed the couch
wiped the table
Folded and hung all my clothes (i swear i need to buy myself a clothes bin)
i forgot the rest

anyways mom comes home and makes herself some food.
by then peter, eric and I were in the middle of watching fast and furious
Before my mom sat down she noticed a spider and she freaked out
she told me to kill it
I told her to kill it yourself
she had a napkin in her hand and placed it on the couch where I was
spider? -> the ground
she kept telling me to kill it, AND THEN~ peter started to tell me to kill it
by then I started feeling *what..the..shit*
What I thought was -Why the fuck can't you kill it yourself huh? WHY!? WHY!?
so I told my mom that if i killed it she'd have to throw it away cause I was the one helping her.
she said yes but by then the spider crawed under the couch.
if I was the only one there, I'd just let it go. I mean wtf is a small ass spider gonna do. It's fangs cant even penatrate your freeken skill. the worst that could happen is it crawls into your mouth while you sleep and you accidently eat it. but you're asleep anyways so you wouldn't know would cha
So the dumbass peter kept saying "kill it! kill it!"
Guess what happened next guys!
I BLEW UP!
I got fucken anger. I swung the couch back hella and just smashed the fucken ass spider and crushed it. Then I brought it right to my mom and told her "Here! TAKE IT! NOW GO THROW IT AWAY! GO! THROW IT AWAY!" *all in viet when it happened*
Then i swung the couch back to normal
peter proceeded me with the wtf look and told me something like cool it, stop right now or else I'll beat you up
I just imediately questioning him, "why can't YOU kill it huh? why not? come on you could tell me why? why not huh? ITS CAUSE YOU CAN'T! >:O *I just wanted to rub it all in his fucken face*
you know what he said? "can't you do a favor?"
lol
you know what happened next, I didn't even respond to that.
I do favors, I do alot a favors actually.
even though I said that I was never to let peter borrow money again i did. why? "It was a favor"
movie ticket "it was a favor"
when I drive mom around "that was a favor"
I do endless favors for everyone. if I can do it I usually do. if not then I just had enough.
He dared to question that I couldn't do a favor?
WHAT THE FUCK?!
anyways I needed to cool down.
I took a shower and worked out to release some anger. put energy into something useful ya know.
so I did some chores to cool down and yeah here i am
I predict.. that we'll just avoid each other and eventually they'll just dissapear eventually
I hate his ass. Just hate it...
someone kill him for me, I'll pay you with whatever money i have left which is less than a 100. jk but I hate him no joke. even God knows I hate him.

Churchy

Went to church today. Youth mass actually =]
I like youth mass ^_____^ it's fun and there are alot of people I know
Plus I like the songs and the mass itself
I mean it's not boring like regular viet mass ya know?
As great as it was I still fell asleep haha
I was so tired I just wanted to sleep in mass.

Oh I went shopping with mom at gmall today so maybe that's why I felt so tired
My gosh she shopped forever -________-
I had no phone so I didn't dare just leave her cause her "rarely" checks her time when she shops -___-
So I stuck with her :/
We went to marshals first
I bought some iPod thing for my car but idk if it works :P I'll just return it if it doesn't
Then we went to sketchers just looked around
She spent the most time in American eagle though -_______-
I'd like to say she spent 1:30-2:00 hrs in that one store
There were no chairs and I had to wait. I stayed there and saw people that came in 30 minutes after her purchase there clothing and left before us.
Women and shopping -_______-
See bought me two shirts though so I stayed but it freaken hurt though I had to stand and hold some bags that we bought.
It was tugging on my finger for so long I had to switch back and forth.
Oh! I've been taking the freeway ^______^
I like the freeway alot faster and personally I think it's easier than the inside road =]

Oh! Anyways I was at church and I suddenly had a bunch of possitive thoughts. (something that I do from time to time)
I thought about how lucky I am to have a loving family (not really but good enough for me)
Great and wonderful friends ^_____^ I thought about all of them as they walked down the row
The bad thing about this is whenever I start this phase I know that something bad is about to happen to me
Idk :/ it's just my six sense of things.
So now I wonder what the bad thing that's gonna happen to me is :/ hmmm
BRING IT ON!!!! :D

what to do what to do

so I finished my room.
cleaned it up.
re-organized it.
wiped down the mirrors and vacuumed my carpet.
Should i wash my car? :/
sigh, naw dad will eventually just smoke in it again and make it all dusty again.

Im supposed to refill the gas today and drive mom somewhere again.
apparently I have a psp (3000 series) but games just cost tooo much.
I asked eric if he could mod and he told me that he could~...just that I could only play some games as in only ps1 games on it. -_____-
there's no point in that..
however he did tell me that the 2000 series could play anything and everything so I started to want a 2000 series.
Im almost broke right now so I've been trying not to spend money.
anyways, I go to game stop and asked them how much they were selling their 2000 series psp. They told me $119? its that or it was $109. something like that.
then I asked him how much they would pay for my psp. he replied, $80 but we do have a promotion going on so we'll throw in an extra $25 making it $105. I seriously wouldn't mind trading that and paying for the difference if I could get any game I want for free.
The problem with this plan though is, my aunt gave me that psp >____< I really don't wanna sell it but then again what good is it to me if i can't play it. T_______T i mean isn't the point of the present is wishing that we could use it?
I've kept it very clean, never dropped it. It's practically new! I mean I've only played 1 game on it. Sigh.
I asked peter what he thought about it and he said that it was a present but it was my choice... -________-
well, right now if i just kept it...most likely its just gonna continue sitting inside my drawer. i don't even think ill use it...but if I traded it...I see no reason to not play with it? -_____-
im kinda leaning towards selling it. I doubt my aunt would notice the difference anyway but its still a present...blaahahhhh

two in one day

two blogs? r3ally? that's so strange. maybe im just in the mood =] whatever

so haven't you guys ever felt like you wanted to be more than yourself.
be better? or just to be a different person than you are now?
I guess what Im trying to say is...Im kinda bored with the person i am O____O
I wanna be different, I wanna change, I wanna stand out ya know? hahaha
I always lived my life within my boundaries :/ idk if that makes sense.
I always played save.
Idk what Im saying just that I just wanna live my life the way i want to.
i mean isn't that me pursuing my happiness? doesn't that mean anything else said by anyone else is just an opinion and could anytime be disregarded as irrelevant.
I just know that when i reflect on my life this isn't how i wanna live my life.

I was watching...whats that movie called...She's out of my league.
moral of the story. are you good enough for yourself.
I found that to be a difficult question to answer and frankly I don't think im good enough for myself never the less I am gonna work on this and change myself.
I wanna be able to look at myself a just feel extremely happy of who i am. =]
wish me luck buys

Fall 2010

Legend
Name of class/days/units
Times of the day/building/intructor
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Current Schedule Units: 14 (max) for now

KIN 48A-Beginning latin Dance: MW: (units: 1)
8:30am-9:20am. Spartan Complex East 089. Instructor Joelle Maletis

KIN 46A-Beginning Social Dance: MW (units: 1)
10:30am-11:20am Spartan Complex East 089. Instructor Joelle Maletis

TA 10-01 Theatre Aprreciation MW (units:3) C1
12:00pm-1:15pm Hugh Gillis Hall 103. Instructor Kratochivil

ENGL 1A: MW (units: 3) A2
1:30pm-2:45pm Sweeney Hall 413. Joan McMillan

PHIL 57-05 Logic and critical Reasoning MW (units: 3) A3
3:00pm-4:15pm Sweeney Hall 348. Instructor Andrew Leung

AAS 33A: TuTh (units: 3) D2,3; F 1,2,3
1:30pm-2:45pm. Engineering Building 343. Instructor Alexander Yamato,
Estella Habal
_________________________________________________________

WAITLIST
(mainly if I perfer the ones below but they were full if I make it pass the waitlist then i'll drop the other one above)

AAS (3 units) MW D2,3; F 1,2,3 WAITLIST #15
a. 9:00AM - 10:15AM. Engineering Building 343. Instructors: Hien Do,
Steven Doi
^will's is in this class and it was the best one. -______- I chose this one first to get on the waitlist and I got like waitlisted as 10 i think then when I added the other one (cause it was open) i think i got dropped or something. I noticed it was gone so I re-added it. now im 15 -_____- shit... well the class is has 80 students...I hope 15 of them changes their mind.

PHIL 57-05 Logic and critical Reasoning TuTh (units: 3) A3
12:00pm-1:15pm Boccardo Business Center 203. Instructor Janet Stemwedel
^ I will only add this if I get into Tai chi because if you haven't noticed Tai chi is half way into my current PHIL class so if I get into Tai Chi and this class is open I'll drop the other one.

Tai Chi (non-combative): MW (units: 1) WAITLIST #5
3:30pm-4:20pm at Spartan Complex Central 004A Instructor: chi Hsiu Weng
^ TAICHIIIIIII!!!!~ TTOTT I want this class so badly~...(hence waterbending :D)

Sigh~ I tried to have it all on just MW, I still might have a chance but for now I have 4 days a week -_______-

o....__.....o

does that make me look like I have a mustache? :D
idk why i did that -____- im completely bored outta my mind
I think if you stay home too long there are symptoms
let me explain:
1. you'll lose track of time and when i say time i mean "today is monday? O___O?"
2. you'll eat everything in your house.
3. you'll get lazy and not wanna follow through with your plan.
4. you'll stay up super late constantly and wake up around 12 or 1.
5. you'll have mood swings more often.
6. Tv becomes your best friend.
7. It's usually you at home by yourself.
8. you'll start to act...actually i'm quite sane.
9. everything you interact with will eventually bore you.
10. I just wanted to have a one through ten :P

Well tomorrow is the day i choose my classes. I remember it was tomorrow not sure what the time is and not sure how i check again. hmmm. :/
i hope it goes smoothly cause its a pain rescheduling -____-

Oh! target called me the other day. I was playing games when i heard a phone call. it then went to speaker and the first thing I heard was "hi~ This is Target and..." my mind lit up and I ran to it but i didn't wanna pick up cause I might not remember what they say so I just waited till she finished. i haven't called back but i really should. I hope I get hired -______- i need a job.

Hmmm

I cut my hair.
Cleaned my room.
Washed and hung my clothes.
Watched part of a movie.
Planned a movie with a few people tomorrow.
Worked out.
Washed the dishes.
My mom snores....very...very loud...kinda reminds me of cang haha
Oh fuck I wanna watch avatar the last airbender movie July 2nd!!!!!!!!

Blaaaah

-_______-
its ridiculously boring at my house.
my rooms a mess so i i started cleaning it yesterday.
I've been sleeping on the couch for one..two..five days?
ever since the beach I haven't been working out at all. its all flaaaaabs again T_____T
Another thing! my face started pealing cause of sunburn so now i have two shades of skin on my face.

Summer school. sooooooo bottom line for me is no summer school.
yes, that means I'm gonna take english 1A sjsu. why? cause they don't except transfers for that class. So i had to take the placement test. my grade was "in between" so basically remediation part 2. but why the heck I take it then. even if i did take it summer would be over and I still have english 1A -_____- this sucks..

besides that my money is low. it hass never been this low :(
my plan: JOB = MONEY.
gotta get a job.
gotta tell my dad about no summer school.
hawaii? :D *surrrrrrffinnnnngggggg* (maybe)
laptop? -______- its been too long.
hmm i think thats it :/

so its finally over is it

We finally did it huh. It just seemed that it was gonna happen sooner or later at this point. Maybe that's why I'm not in shock, surprised or crying. Instead, I'm smiling. How strange it is for me to smile as we broke apart. I'm not smiling because it's what I wanted, heavens no. I wanted us to stay together but that...that was just wishful thinking. I'm don't regret any of it, maybe that's why it doesn't hurt because I realize the situation beforehand. I'm not sure if it just girls but but all the guys I know commit to what they do. I don't understand why girls feel the need to be doubtful. Doubt never sunk into my mind until you told me that you had your own doubts. Maybe I got paranoid idk. Time to confess my sins then. I did lie. I lied sometimes when you asked if I was alright. I knew you were busy adding more trouble wouldn't help and I uaually find myself again anyways so I just told you I was alright. What else did I lie about. I lied when I said I felt the same way as I did she we first fell for each other. I knew it was t true but I refused to believe it so I said I still did. Truth is I didn't feel the same anymore. The absence that you left took a big affct on how I felt. I think I wouldve been fine if we kept staying in touch but that changed somewhere. How unfortunate. Like you said. There isn't a doubt that I do care for you and love you as well but we aren't "in love" anymore. I think the thing I missed the most was spending time with you. I could of spent days with you if I could but things got problematic. We stopped seeing each other. Me having to commute made you feel like you were burdening me. Your mom, school, the spc thing, blackie. Yeah I missed that the most. Spending time. I hope you don't see this as your fault. I mean I know you are probably the reason why this ended but I still don't want you to see this as your fault. For me I'm trying to see the better side of this. I know this isn't the end of the world. You don't have to be troubled anymore. I get to be single? (not so sure I'm happy about that) I get to find myself now without feeling bad for leaving you. Who knows maybe we might have another chance in the future. I know one thing imma do. I know for sure imma stay away from relationships though. I need to explore a whole lot more. Somewhat like you =] shit I know I wanna change some stuff about myself. I still have to find out alot of stuff so it's not all bad. Sure I'm sad, but only because it ended so soon. We barely got to talk though. We basically died out haha. Idk maybe I'm trying to laugh it off. Maybe I had my heart crushed so many times that this became normal. What evvvvs it's over now and it's tv past so imma just let it pass =] step towards the future?

hmm o___o

hey i made a tumblr...
I found it really funny how easy it was to creat one.
anyways here yah go if you wanna follow me
http://ukn03itsj03.tumblr.com/
Peace~

June 6

Hey...sup people. It's late, actually it's 1:05 am so yeah really late.
I just wanted to pay my respects to Kristine's dog, blackie. 5 years and 8 months is a long period.

When I think of blackie these are my first thoughts:
Energetic
Black
Running
Hyper
Kristine's cherished animal
Cute personality
And truely lovable.

I heard he went missing the day before and I really thought he was gonna come back...like he always does.
It saddened me when I found out this morning that he had just passed away yesterday.
I was like WTF?! I couldn't believe what I heard. I didn't know what Kristine was going through only that it must of felt like alot of pain.

My last memory of him is something I'll always remember
Last week was the last time I saw him and
I'm glad I decided to play with him
He was doin the usual running around the backyard. This time he had a yellow and red ball in his mouth.
I messed with him, grabbed his ball and "tried" to play catch. Whenever he got the ball though, he'd just run away with it in his mouth =] although it wasn't what I wanted it was still really cute. I also scratched his body that day too.
*secret* I remember that day she told me that she had bathed him with shampoo and he smelled really good.
I didn't wanna look like an idiot and start smelling the dog so I waited till she left before I sniffed him =] he did smell good and I openly said that too.
I also remembered that I had to wash my hand after to "played" catch cause the ball was filled with his drool.

Imma miss that really cool midnight black blackie
He had the cutest face I swear.
I loved that dog.

Saddest part I don't even know how he died...I mean it's not something I can just ask. I'll just wait it out I guess.
He was alot of things: he was a dog, he was family, and he was a friend.
A whole lotta people are gonna miss you man...I know im gonna miss ya..
I mean F#€@! That dog was the best...
Goodnight blackie... we love you.

Fanime

its 12:11 uploading pic from fanime.

the event was fun. i wasted hella money...then again its not really wasting is it if i think it was beneficial huh :D

so what happened?
4 day event fri-mon
we stayed for fri-sun
peter, me, cang, eric, van and paul went to fanime and came back to the fairmont hotel to sleep. We met up with marwin, alex, michelle, sophia, will and kenny. that and we saw people that we knew one time or another in our lives there.

things I bought?
38 avatar the last airbender pins ($30-40 total)
its alot but if you seen the artwork, its niceeee *basically a dollar for every pin*
3 gundam models ($93 total)
not into models but these looked really nice and gundams are expensive, they're usually $50 and up for just one so I say three for that price was alright. plus I got to open the box to inspect the quality so that was a plus. It looks really nice though.
4 posters ($10 total)
I got a ken poster (streetfighter) poster for free cause fanime was closing, i paid 8 for a avatar poster and 2 for 2 bleach posters =]
1 necklace ($6 total)
I bought some really nice flower glass necklace for my mom.
2 avatar card thingy ($5)
its really funny =] it asks like a question and at the bottom are the avatar characters in a row with their distinctive responses :P you'll get it if you see it.

I think that was it o____o I was gonna buy a really really like REALLY NICEE avatar poster but I didn't think it was worth the money -____- so no. that and a bleach sword but I decided not to get that either.

Things I wanted to buy
I wanted to get something for my dad so i walked around. I quickly notice how nothing there is his sorta thing -_________-
kristine? I tried looking for something that would suit you and be useful at the same time. I couldn't find anything T________T I saw this really nice hair clip thing on this girl. i asked her where she got it from and she told me in the dealer's hall. dealer's hall just closed like 5 minutes ago. sadness. T___T

free stuff?
weelllllll the first one was the picture of RYU.
how'd I notice? a swarm of people storming to one of the artist's dest and people started picking up hella posters. yep yep. got there in time for one ^____^
the second one was a bookmark. she made us dance for like 10 seconds then let us grab one from her hand. I got some cat thing. its not bad, its kinda cute. idk if you want it kristine but its better with you than with me cause i dont even use book markers :/

There was also a Rave. I went to check it out with paul it was alright. we just stood there against the wall cause i was too tired to dance. the dj was good though and I felt like dancing but i ended up not goin cause we went home early.

there was also a concert. hella loud and I wasn't a fan but yeah. it was nice i guess o.o stayed for like 5 mins and left.

I missed the black and white ball :/ i wanted to see that one too.

fanime was fun. costly but it was really fun. I'd go again next year =]