Thank you God

Thank you God for a good day. I know I haven't spoken to you lately nor have I thought about you much. I know I keep asking you for help. I feel guilty for not talking to you as much anymore. I am not worthy of you. I just want to thank you for helping me on the mid-term this morning. It was really easy, I'm glad I studied. Thank you for movies, I love them all ^^ especially humor. Thank you for music, it helps me kill time when I'm bored. Thank you for my clothes, I think it'd be awkward if I didn't have them :P. Thank you for fortune cookies, I love the little fortunes inside the cracker ^^. I know I haven't been a good son for my parents, but thank you for allowing me to have them. Even though they are busy, weird and annoying at times, I'm glad to have them as my parents. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for them, but that doesn't mean they own my life just cause they gave me life. I'm grateful for what they've done. Thank you for kristine, she is just absolutely amazing. I hope we last forever. Yes, even peter -.- as messed up as he is, he has been helpful...at times...rarely. Thank you for the friends I have made, all the amazing memories and adventures that i had; I'll never forget them. I thank you for everything you've done for me, for anyone that has been there for me, for everything that has happened to me...thank you for that...thank you God.

With much love,
Joe

Have faith in us

wondering about my past is fine, there's nothing wrong with that.

I didn't date many girls, you are the third girl that I really liked.
we all have our share of rough relationships, and the last one really shattered my heart and soul. Im not sure if you know the feeling of pouring your all into someone and it just dies like that. I thought it was gonna last but it didn't. It hurt alot, i even cried. Felt like a part of me just died then, so forgive me if I'm not more passionate towards you. Im really trying hard to give you what's left of me. Its not much is it?

I just hope you understand why Im like this. The past is the past, we are the present thats all that matters, but if you wanna know about it I'll be willing to tell you everything. There's nothing wrong with that =]

Worrying

to recap on the top of my head, I've been distressing. Lots of school work is cramming at me at once. I dont have the freedom to do as I please anymore. I have a midterm tomorrow and I have no idea what is gonna be on it. Tet Trung Thu was fun, it was a chill day before homework so I tried to be happy, possitive and have lots of fun. Caught some fish at first, but it got really packed so I moved to help the teachers with balloons. It was so bad, it was in the middle of like...no where just the sun. it got really hot, so when we switched helium tanks I just went elsewhere. Thai tea was alright, the first one was really bland, the second one was okay except they basically only gave me ice. The meat was good. mass was alright, really hot and the bees kept flying around me T-T. I got some alone time with kristine, it was good while we were alone. I missed the "fish drinking contest" (so weird)

At night huy and I passed out candy and chips. I helpped out taking down some tents, put away chairs and bought more thai tea. I didn't grab a lantern this year :/ oh well. After wards we went to smoke eatters. wasn't really hungry just watched everyone else eat. I drank lemonade and sprite. Afterward we decided to walk around down town and ended up at school. we came back and drove Kathleen, Richy, and Nang home.

Driving was okay. I didn't like how I was unable to back the car up. I dont know how, and dad tried to explain it to me but I still didn't get it so ugh. He made these remarks that slowly aggravated me. I was angry and kinda stepped harder on the gas but I was still cautious of everything.

I have math homework due today. I had three hours to do it but I just didn't understand it. I guess I'll let it go this time :/ I don't like how life is going right now. school is too time consuming i dont have time for anything I wanna do. :/

just been thinking again =]

Oh! omgeee peter!! >:( he made me late...AGAIN except this time I had a quiz. I came in sat down looked up and saw the words "quiz" on the projector I was like fawwwwwk. I start getting my paper out and labled it with my name and stuff and the teacher says "one minute left" -.- I just got in and I have one minute to do a 6 problem quiz. fawwken peter man I'm gonna beat his ass when I get home. It isn't that hard to wake up at 6:40. I call him and he just lays there for the next 10-15 minutes then once he is up he starts his "grooming" wtf~ we're gonna be late and he wants to shower and whatnot? I called him up early for a reason >:( and on top of that once we leave the house he starts speeding like crazy wtf man. I woke you up hella early so we would have time for traffic, have time for your groomyness and shit. I didn't wake up early so I have to wait, so I can die in a car accident, so I can fail a quiz. I study everyday for a reason asshole! Maybe you don't need to do homework and still do fine on quizes and testes but Im different, I have to study. I didn't spend all that time doing the work, giving my all so that you can FUCK it up by being the freakin lazy ass that you are. Get your act together cause you're jepardizing my education. (whew, I feel better now)

blogging is one way I vent. I just throw every thought I have into it. things that are bugging me and I feel better afterwards, weird huh. Anyways I was so hungry this morning -o- I finally finished my math homework photocopied along with my MUSE homework. Got some Subways yumm but I eat it too much I think im starting to lose my craving for it. So tired, stayed up finishing hw and talking to kristine ^^ I just wanna pass out in the library right now and just sleep but I cant I have class in like...30 minutes. I haven't gotten enough sleep lately and I started having these headaches again since like last weekend and yesterday. I needa sleep -O- like this guy

I wonder~

I'll tell you the truth...this isn't enough for me. I don't have enough time with you...alone. I just wonder if I can keep this up. If I can go to your school, hangout with wilson and barely have anytime with you. I travel 3 hours and 3 times a week just for you. I don't know if I can do this any longer. sigh. I really want to see you. At times like these, I just really resent your mother -.- she just screwed everything up.

I want more time...thats all I'm asking...

You're still my best friends

My best friends are great and inspiring people. People that changed my life one time or a few times. They're always there when I need someone to talk to, on the other hand I've been doing a lousy job... I haven't called, we haven't talked. I still want us to hang out and talk and whatnot, always. one day when I get my license I'm gonna take all you guys to have a chill day. We could go eat, watch a movie, chill idk just do something cause there's so much to talk about.

Tiffany: I am so sorry I haven't called you T-T. Just remember that you were there when I needed to vent and that was a life saver. I'll talk to you soon.

My anh: I really haven't talked to you in awhile :( It's not that I don't want to, I do. It's just you live so far~ it takes hours and hours to get to you T-T

Nang: Idk I see you most of all my best friends. I mean we did go to the same school and you live the closest to me. I could even bike to your house in like 30 mins hahaha. Idk I could always tell you stuff ^^ its lots of fun

Even though I haven't talked to you guys in awhile I still consider you guys to be my best friends. If you dont want us to be anymore, I'd understand but I'd still be thankful for you. I love you all.