Wow, this turned out longer than I thought :P

life is okay at the moment, nothing new.
I'm currently at the school library just waiting till class starts :/
mondays and wedsdays ar quite boring cause I have this 3 hour gap cause my LLD activity class doesn't start till September 14th.

I'm a little bit worried about my classes. Math will make me do alot of research (not my best area :3) LLD 1 is gonna be tough :/ I need to make a good impression so if I need her help she is comfortable enough to support me. Somehow being late for her classes twice out of the three times because peter didn't get ready fast enough. today I missed the class just by a few minutes, sad. I mean I'm not freaking out about it because if I do fail that class I'll just have to go to community college to pass the course then return and continue. Either way life just goes on, I know I'm not really fast so this should be normal for me right? I like my stress management class though. Its very relaxing and I like learning about stress ^^. there are days where we just go to the room next door, lay on a mat, listen to music and his voice. I really like the "Awakening in Utopia" class :P its very lively I just worried that I wont be able to keep up with the others. If you haven't noticed yet reading and writing are my worse subjects. I hope I wont have to read alot cause that'd just kill me.

I drove the car again (my fourth time? o.O?? I finally started getting used to the turns and signaling and what not. My dad offered me to drive on the actual road insead of around the business building. I was scared and afraid and quite frankly I wasn't mentally ready so I drove around the bussiness building one more time then entered the open road. I was scary, I was checking my mirrors like constantly and thinking -what should I do- when I saw the car driving behind me. I made a u turn and dad told me to step on the gas more, I wasn't goin fast enough. So I stepped on it and when it was like 25-30 I was like ahhhh >< soooo fast~ but I did fine. The only thing that I have trouble with is backing up. Im not allowed to use the mirrors so I look back and back up. -failed- it was so bad, I have no idea how it works. I try to find some way to measure the distance from my car to the end and the curb. I couldn't find a way and I still don't know how its done. My dad tried to tell me what to do but I didn't understand, it wasn't going through :/ thats the only thing I'm really worried about, but besides that, its fun ^^ for now at least. I hear you get tired of driving after awhile idk we'll see ^^

love life? the though of it is always in my mind I just don't know what to do. I don't know what to talk about. I'd rather really have you face to face and talk :/ I wish i was better at conversations but the fact is I'm not. I will try but that's all i can give you, that's all i have. And yes, of course I wanna talk to you, I just don't know what to talk about. We already covered so much I just don't know, I keep talking about my wishes for our future but the fact is you're stuck in that house till you graduate. And I can't come to your house, I just...It feels like I cant do anything for you. I mean SPC allowed me to see you every week but now that you might only go once in awhile I don't know how we'll have "our" time. Even though I put out time to visit you at school on tuesday and thursday, I only get to be with you for like 30 minutes to an hour. On top of that we might not even be alone, your brother might be there, you might be surrounded by your friend. Don't get me wrong, I love being with you, I just wish we spent more time together. 30min to an hour two days a week doesn't sound right to me, it just doesnt sound right. I may put up with it now but, if I have to keep this up I don't think I can :/ You have my love and everything else that I am, I gave it all to you. I just don't know how we'll make more time cause I don't see any gaps. Your mom is quite the, "where are you" 24/7 -.-